flarestar

2010-08-20T18:41:00.002+08:00

Wat is happiness??? the onli happiness i noe from my heart is for the past 1 months plus tgt wif u... every dae will be so happy... but i doubt there wont hav those happiness anymore... theres really nth could ever replace you... no one could ever unstd how i feel right now...

2010-08-16T13:57:00.002+08:00

i didnt know wat to write for my sub heading.. but tat doesnt matter... the reason i came back to write in my tis blog is i didnt noe who i can confide all my thing to... the person who i being confide for the past 1 months plus wont be there anymore for me... i really really really feeling very xin ku... now i noe how does heartbroken feel.. and i can say you r de onli person who had make de greatest impact in my life now.. how foolish of me to hav de thought we will be tgt for a really long period which i really all along believe whenever we r tgt... and i can say there's no sadness at all during de past 1 months plus.. u say ur tis decision is for my good.. but did u really go and think is really my own gd... tis is all wat u think onli.. u nv think of how i feel at all.. and u say i will be ok awhile.. and tis is also ur own thinking.. do u noe ur tis decision really will leave me a scar.. a really painful scar... a scare which wont forever disappear... i really really scare....................... scare every nite i will be missing u.. scare every morning i nv receive ur msg... scare my hp very quiet without ur msg and call.. scare every nite will be very quiet without u... scare without u i didn't know what to do anymore...
how i can wish i could really tel u tat i love you!!! missing you so badly!!! how it will be gd to hear u calling my "tat name" again...

2008-05-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

Lots of things wanna to say out...

Didn't like to bottle up my feeling in my heart....

how i wish i had car right now... speeding along the expressway... driving off all my trouble....

didnt need to care abt tis post... juzz wanna to rant out onli...

2008-05-05T01:16:00.003+08:00

NS letter received!!!
Going in on 12 JUNE... and tats ard 1 more month for me...
tis time round really nid to start self training le... if not go in sure DIE.. dun wanna go in become "pikachu bing".. hahaha

And also received NTU letter... had been guranttee a place when i finish my NS...
BUT... i still thinking whether shld i study another course.... if i study another course.. wat course i can study..?? every course got pros and cons
Business course..?? my english like KNS la... go there sure cant survive.. if can survive also will be super tough...
Aerospace?? if i tk tis course... the road to my ambition really really super near le... BUT..............

PS.. things i wanna to do... GOING to meet up wif everyone of my fren at least ONE more time be4 goin to NS...
so fren.. ask me out when u r free.. or when i ask u out.. pls make urself free... hahaha

2008-03-26T04:50:00.003+08:00

surprise updated!!!

im too bored now so thinking of updating one post since i so long nv update liao.. haha.. and right now is 5am!!! and im still super awake now la, dun hav a slight tiredness at all... oh man!! had been really slping real late tis fews dae... must adjust back to usual normal human being timing le.. if not how i can survive in ns coming up... and tis type of lifestyle also wont do gd for own body... starting to feel sick soon le... had been back to my coughing... coughing non-stop... mum ask me go see doc but i refused.. haha... cuz i believe tat drink some cough mixture will able to cure it and i also like to yi du gong du...

anyway... right now im un-offically graduted!!! result taken back... gpa had dropped... but ok ar.. quite satisfield wif it... nth really can complain... cuz i had bad record in my lab ma... who to blame... anyway still be able to persure on my dream... tat wat more impt...

hmm... actually tis holi dun feel like working... but i might change my mind now... cuz holi still got quite long be4 my ns... but the job requirement must be above 8bucks.. then will go and consider... lolz!!!

still planning for bi ye oversea tis holi also... considering some factors...

p.s: thks for those who give me a memorable bdae tis yr... thks!!!!

last dae of 2007!!

2007-12-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

i left 20 more min to make a post over here... without wasting anymore time..
todae will be de last dae of 2007... recalled back wat i had achieved in 2007... actually there didnt much i had achieved.. haha..
but at least i think i had achieve more than the previous yr is gd enough le.. haha
anyway... tml will be 1st of 2008...
in 2008... i strongly believe tat there will be more new thing for me to experience such as getting my head to be botak and get into ns, graduate from poly, my 21st bdae etc etc)
and below will be thing i hopefully to achieve in coming 2008... haha
(not in according order)
1) napfa getting a silver at least
2) owing a car
3) stiking toto (impossible??)
4) getting dip in merit
5) bu neng shou de mi mi
6) bu neng shou de mi mi

20min is up!! lastly wish all my fren and everyone hav a great yr ahead... HAPPY new yr!!! =D

2007-11-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

Tml will be my last day of my attachment... a bad thing or a gd thing??
as least for me, i onli noe tat goin back to sch will hav more gd thing than bad thing(such as i didn't nid to travel so far everyday, comparing 1 station to like more than 10 station? haha.. and always the nid to sqeeue in the train with all the working life pple every morning...
but, the onli bad thing of leaving my company is to bid goodbye to all my colleagues, who had been went through together for the past 3 months wif us.. simply dislike the feeling of bidding goodbye(not refering juzz to tis situation but to everything)...
anyway... my "colleague".. can actually say like more a fren to me... will be organising a bbq event for me and es tml night at east coast park including some of my poly fren... and they had been keep saying it is a farewell party for es while a "celebration" for me... wth... hahaha...
anyway... lets all of us enjoy ourselves tml...

my sis and bro went to hong kong wif my relative last few days ago... and they will be away for 1 week.. juzz now my mum gave me read the msg what my sis had send to her todae... omg!! i realised that the whole hse had become so much much quiet since they left... i'm so not used to it... hate tis type of feeling when things suddenly changed overnight...

back to sch for my fyp coming mon

2007-11-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

Annoucement to all...
currently my hp will be under emergency "treatment"... so for the time being, i will be using my mom hp... unfortunatly, i realised tat my contact list were lost... as i left all of it in my hp memory, didn't hav any backup with me...
those who wanna to find me, especially through msg, if can, pls add in ur name onto the msg.. juzz in case i ask for ur name... haha.. unless those i still rem ur number... then can dun nid la.. but i think onli a few ar.. =X
anyway, i reckon my hp will be back wif me a few more dae time...

2007-10-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

Imagine u are in a soccer match between Chelsea and Manchester united...as u r the new manager of chelsea after jose mourinho had left... the dressing room were unrest, u had prob wif some of ur player, and wat now.. u r losing 1-0 against man u... tis game is really very impt to u... the onli advantage u hav.. is having a loaded owner of the club at ur back... giving u his help and support... so wat tactic or wat strategic will u use against this big odd when u down 1-0 to man u?? an all out attacking, hoping tat some miracle will happen... but tis might risk losing some gap behind and being conceded another goal?? making it more difficult... OR playing defensive.. try not to let oppenent score another goal.. but tis might not won u the game in the end.... so if u r him?? wat will u plan to ask ur team to do?? Any comment is welcome...

P.S: to one of fren... ya, i admit tis time is really my fault la... tk tis chance to aplogise to u... i really dun mean it... srry!!!
and ya... i always rate fren high in my list.. if u dun believe... at least for me... i believe is enough le...
P.S: great week for me so far tis week...

2007-08-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

It time for me to make a post again....
everything regarding to sch matter had been settle... Exam, Project, Report all down... and tis sem is my last time studying and taking exam in poly... so starting nx sem... will be in attachment and Fyp... but seriously... i perfer studying than those fyp and iap...
anyway.. won't forgotting those pple who made my sch life always happenning.... will miss u guys much... =)

mentioning abt exam... i think the last paper wireless... i won't be doin soo well.... it's de most most diffi paper among those 3 paper... and and now i realise sthg... though staging a comeback is challanging... but it is also very tiring... hopefully i will able to get a gd grade for tis last sem of my exam ba....

and i had a short period of ONE week of holidae for tis sem break onli.... after which... i will be off to my iap first.... so i hav onli one week for me to play hard le... and there number of list which i wanna to do during tis 1 week break... wat thing? i won't say.. haha.. it's for everyone guess...

anyway tis coming sun i will off to genting le... hope everything will be safe... =)

2007-05-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

I guess tis the first time such long time since i had last made an entry... anyway thks for those who still came to visit my blog even though i long time didn't blog... so this entry is for you guys... hahas... didn't noe whether will it be a long or short entry though... so i shall let my hand do all those typing... and not being influence by my mind...
and let start off thing which is sthg GD... hahas...

have u once tried be4 tat the path toward ur goal/dream are closer... or shld i say it can be achiveable..? ya.. i had the taste of it rite now... i can really finally see the light toward my dream so far rite now... hahas... anyway the goal/dream which i refering to.. is my dream career.. and i won't mention wat is tat over here... all along.. though i really wanna to be " in tat career" ... but in my heart... i knew tat it will be quite impossible... is all those wishful thinking onli... BUT... thing and my mindset change...
ok.. to cut it short..
in the past i had try to get some information on the requirement to get into tis job... but ended up... can't really find the enquiry of it... then, recenlty i found out tat my cousin had a fren who is training at the company rite now... so at tat moment i was like quickly went to ask my cousin to ask her fren abt the requirement to get inside... and finally after fews yr of wanna to noe.. i finally get to noe the requirement le... lols... and the best things was tat... after reading the msg... i realised tat every of the requirement so far rite now i could able to get inside if thing went smoothly... and tat is the moment my mindset had changed... the possiblity of getting in was quite high instead... hahas

Sch r getting more and more stress when days goes by... all thks to those upcoming projs and assignments... but at the same time... it was also quite fun... and getting much used to my new bunch of fun and interesting classmate...
NAFA is coming... in abt 1 months time... N i not goin for the extra 1 month of NS... so starting from coming week... goin to hav intensive training and excersie...
Last and for all... rem to stay tune for tis coming wed night (24/4/07) 2.30am for the CL FINAL between Liverpool and AC milan!! lols...

2007-04-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

a "promise" entry... sch reopen in juzz 2 weeks time... omg... juzz a blink 2 months of holi goin to end soon le... tat is fast... haha..

meet up wif sl in the evening.... went to yishun... then after tat dinner at causeway point... after dinner... she went to find her fren... so since i at woodland le... went to find kt to chat chat lor... haha...

might be staying up late tonite... to watch soccer.... match involving liverpool... how to miss... plus it's already quarter-final le... lols...

anyway a song will be up soon in my blog.... a song which i wanted to find it long time ago.. but failed... and now i finally own it le... lol... hopefully it can be up in fews day time ba...

MISS those good old days...

P.S: Thks zan hong for finding tis song and send it to me... =)

Edit: 4th april

the song which i wanna to put into my blog is up... thks wh ytd for his help... tat is y i could able to put it up so fast....
enjoy listening pple.. =)

2007-03-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

sch result, module grp and sch timetable are all out....

start from sch result... tis time wasn't really unhappy wif it... must say i'm content enough le... got back 4A 1b+ 2b... cuz be4 tat i had already prepare for the worst... so after i took back tis result... really very satisfied le... cannot ask for any more...

fews min ago found out my nx sem the class... i got into class A4 and AA.... so far currently i noe those same class wif me onli has zanhong... ok.. at least got someone whom i noe will be in the same class as me... but the rest (gordon eesiong sr and janet) who i noe all won't be in the same class le... goin to miss those daes when we always slack in tuto and lec period.... for the rest who i still didn't update... pls update me on ur class which u in k... thks... =D

oh ya... my timetable is also out le... the time slot i find it... still alrite for me ba... finally no more night lesson anymore... but out of 5 dae... 3 dae ended at 6pm... and i also realised tat the module which i goin to nx sem... out of 7... got 5 of them are core module la... all same credit.. and the credit is big... super fierce la... lol... but tis all wait till sch reopen den go and think ba... dun wan to dump my holi mood so fast...

didn't wan to write abt things which happen in my life.. cuz didn't really noe wat to write... wait till i noe wat to write le... den i will post again ba...

Update....

2007-03-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

shall briefly update on wat had been happening for the past fews dae...

28th feb
last paper on tat dae... not a really well done paper though... but at least for now... exam is over... and the start of holi... shall hav a well derserve rest for now after a period of non-stop mugging... the nx one month plus didn't need to face my lec note and textbk anymore... AND 28th of feb mark the very last dae of class AE.... it is quite a sad thing as we are goin to seperate soon into own respectative specialize... and the video below shows all the memories which we had being gone through our two yr in poly together... credit to allstar for making tis video....

1st march
went to simon hse for mahjong session... together wif eesiong shanxuan zhiwen ahbao and xiaojian... play for 2 rounds onli due to not enough of time... kup wif zhiwen... first round won 15 buck... 2nd round no win no lose.. maybe is because of his beginner luck which make us won... haha... after tat went back straight home le...

3th march
mahjong again wif kt and his frens in the afternoon.... after tat went to clarke quay to mit up wif lingwei jianlong and weihao to catch the BIG match between man u and liverpool.... ok.. liverpool eventually lost in the ended... sadded... wat can i say is tat man u got tat champion's luck...

4th march
went for driving lesson in the afternoon... finally i got another instructor... juzz for your infor... from the 1st lesson till now... i being allocted to juzz one instructor all the while... how "lucky" can i be rite... haha... tis instructor todae is much much better den my usually instructor... at least he noe how to praise pple... ya... and he giving me alittle bit back of my confidence on my driving... and for tat instructor whom i always allocated wif... always juzz can't stop demoralize me can... and tml i goin to hav my last practical lesson be4 my test date on the nx dae... and i think i goin be "coaching" by him again... omg... and please tml dun let him demoralise back me... if not i dun noe how i goin to tk my practical test le...

one more dae left to my TP... (6th of march)

Twenty....

2007-02-27T02:19:00.000+08:00

First of all.... Thks for those pple who rem tis dae.... and had make an effort to give their wishing... was really very much appreciated....

sian sian.... so fast turn 20 liao... omg... no more first digit "1" in front anymore le.... haha...
anyway this yr wasn't really tat happening though... but was kinda of expected already le... so is alrite la...

evening went to hav dinner at chong pang to celebrate wif family and relative... soon after dinner... went to meet up wif jian long, kaitai, lingwei, weesiang, peiqin and seowsuan for supper... as a kind of celebration too... really very thks guys... after tat went up to ss hse to play blackjack... btw who say bdae gt bdae luck sia... all fake de lor... but nvm ar... lose abit onli nia... haha...
play till 1am plus... after tat took cab back home...

tat how my bdae had passed... though everything look simple... but was kinda of pleased with it le... BUT somehow there seem like sthg is still missing....

2 paper down... 1 more to go...
there's much lesser burden now le.... my math paper had finished... the biggest burden had finally lifted... wohoo... but actually there nth well to happy abt anyway.... cuz todae i screw up my math paper... damn it... it was easy la i can say.... cuz almost lots of ques is from de hint which teacher had given us... and ytd i had spent de whole dae at home doin lots of practise...
then todae when i step into de examination hall.. my focus had gone to somewhere else... lost my focus and concentratation on de paper... argghh... nvm...
now left 1 more paper... will do my utmost best for it.... jia you le...

guess tis time coming holi.. it will be goin to be a boring plus sian plus lonely holi for me le...

2007-02-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL...

the chinese new yr for tis yr had been quite different from last yr... visit more relative's hse tis yr... and get to see some of my cousin who didn't seen for ages.... but somehow de mood for tis yr chinese yr new seem like gone... cuz there's sthg which was at my back of my mind all along... one of them is de end of sem exam which i will tk one in 2 dae time and another two on nx week.... i realli nid luck for it... though i noe tat i couldn't able to afford any slip-up but tis time ard i think i nid to tk a gamble on it already...

guess tis fews dae i'm goin to hav vv little slp liao ar.... will be burning midnight oil for de nx few night...

everything will be put aside for time being.... i nid back my motivation n my confidence.... where they gone..??

back to my mugging...

shi ni jue ding wo de shang xin

2007-02-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

in de afternoon.... went for a haircut together wif my bro... so purposly make a trip to yishun AGAIN... did not wanna to mention wat happen de previous time.... juzz a super wasted trip de previous time...

anyway for those who saw my bro be4.... u all will surely agree tat he look very cute and very handsome(if not now... in de future he comfirm will de lor...haha) even though he juzz sec 1... but if anyone who dun noe him.. will mistook him as primary sch student...
but after de haircut... he look super super damn cute la... and become even more handsome wif his new hairstyle... juzz simply envious la... haha... but too bad didn't tk any pic of him juzz now to post on here...

went back hm straight away... stay at hm till evening... went out for reunion dinner wif my father's side.... dine at a restrauant called "dong hu" near ard bugis... tis is de first time we having such an advance reunion dinner... but it is much better to new yr eve... as de service is much better due to lesser of crowd...

CNY is coming = exam coming = my bdae coming... hahaha

i mention abt my bdae cuz maybe tis yr... most likely i won't be celebrating my bdae le... due to the above reason... plus some of others are having their itp... and plus i did not noe where to celebrate it too... so there no choice and de best solution is not to celebrate le lor...

due to my inconsistent blogging... wishes all an advance HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR....
tk care of ur health for those who tking their exam after cny... but to those who not tking exam... must also tk care of ur health too... =)

2007-02-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

One paper down... and tat will be my last common test paper... so there won't be any more common test for tis sem anymore.... Exam are up next (but it will be resume onli after de CNY)

can say tat the effort which i had put in ytd was quite truly payoff even though it is quite tiring... as ytd spent de whole dae and night memorising and unstanding those topic... therefor todae de paper not so tat diffi as wat i eventually expect... ok... at least for tonite... deserve a well rest... haha...

After de paper... went to math lesson (for revision)... it mark our LAST lecture for tis sem... quite a sad thing though... as for nx sem... most of us is goin to separate into our own respectative specialise... Anyway gonna to miss those dae which spent wif them in sch...

Let do our class proud for one last time in tis coming end of semseter exam ba... at least it is gd to leave a gd impression be4 it goin to be separated...

2007-02-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

It been such a long time since i last blog tat when i was loggging in juz now... i nearly forgtton my password...

there no more sch starting from tis week... but supposely tis morning had a revision lessson at 8am... but i overslpt... so ended up decided not to go for it... den after tat heard from my classmate tat there is another revision lesson but different moduale at 3pm... which is internet computing... as on tis coming thur there is a test on tis modalue... so decided to go for it hopefully he will give us some hint for our exam...

so went back to sch at 2pm... mit up wif my classmate at fj... after tat went to our lec room... suprising... quite alot of pple attended it (as it was open to all)... but after like 30 min... once we had settle down.... de lecturer told us tat tis extra lesson is for those who got D or fail student... and he won't be giving any hint for de exam... so me weihao kun sr and gordon left de class.... went to lib to play poker... lol...

played till ard 5pm... went to mit kt after tat to play soccer wif ys and his classmate.... as there are pple occupying de hockey field... we ended up playing at de bball court in sch...
sustain leg blister... as i didn't wear any shoe while playing... blame it to my oversize shoe...
after de match... they changed to bball... sit out through de match due to my blister....
i saw tat guy in person who sang yong qi in our production video... he sang damn good la ok...
*thumb up
went back striaght hm after tat... cuz i wanna to catch de last ep for [the peak]...
hopefully de ending will be de ending which i hope to see... zhihang must be together wif xiaoyang ar... haha
ok.. back to my show...

dun get to noe a person too well... unless there hav a strong trust between each other...

2007-01-21T03:37:00.000+08:00

1 lab test 2 quizz down and specialisation hav been out last week... got into my 1st choice... ok... for those who wanna to noe where i got into... i got into wireless... though no much comment abt it... as for now my target is to at least maintain my gpa can le... =)

went to watch soccer in the night wif jl ws kt lw and pd... in de end went to ah bang's there to watch instead of comin to my hse to watch... how can miss tis match sia... liverpool vs chelsea leh... haha... liverpool ended up won de match as wat i also hope... well done!! 3 cheers for their hardwork...

stupid cough... coughing quite badly... and it juzz super irritating la... always act up onli in de night.... ok.. i think i shall stop writtin le ar.. if not ltr my bacteria bein pass onto it... haha...

has my luck changed..??

2007-01-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

O level result coming out... all poly in singapore goin to hav their open hse soon.... ok.. all these wasn't really my business anyway.... but heard tat temasek poly had 5 new courses being intro tis yr... and guess wat... one of them super related to wat my ambition in de future... they named it as "Diploma in Aviation Management & Services"... so went to check abt de detail of it... found out tat wif my last time cut-off-pt.. i could able to get in la.... argghhh... den suddenly gt tat kind of urge of changing my course right now la... cuz from wat i read in de course summary... it look super super interesting... sthg tat really interested to me... serious speaking... really dun noe wat i goin to do after i graduated from my tis diploma... as now i'm juzz studyin for de sake of studyin... n for de sake of getting gd result also...

blame it all to tp... how come they now den intro tis course tis yr sia.... haha.. if not tat time i surely will put it as my first choice liao ar.... but nvm ar... wat de past.. already past liao... no choice but juzz continue on lor... for now hopefully can maintain wif my gpa can liao... haha... anyway my passion won't change... will still continue to pursue my li xiang after tat...

getting my specailisation tis week....

2007-01-09T01:53:00.000+08:00

todae entry was a exception... actually wasn't really feel like blogging... as i had nth to blog... but since i had promise someone tat i will make an entry todae... so no choice but to make an entry lor... haha.. cuz a promise is not mend to be broken... at least for me la... i dun noe for others... haha..

so was blog hopping juzz now... finding some lin gan whether wat to write also.... but suddenly came past a person blog... and i read sthg which i shldn't hav read.... ok.. i do not wan to say wat tat... and i did not wan to think so much anymore liao... anyway tat is all in de past le...

and for now... was quite satisfield wif de things for de time being... cuz i noe wat i actually really wan now... she shld be de one ba.. haha... but anyway tis type of thing very diffi to say de la... juzz see how it goes ba...

2007-01-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

Without You

no i can't forget this evening
or your face as you were leaving
but i guess that's just the way
the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes
you sorrow shows
yes it shows
no i can't forget tomorrow
when i think of all my sorrow
when i had you there
but then i let you go
and now it's only fair
that i should let you know
what you should know

chorus:
i can't live
if living is without you
i can't live
i can't give anymore
i can't live
if living is without you
i can't give
i can't give anymore

well i can't forget this evening
or your face as you were leaving
but i guess that's just the way
the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes
you sorrow shows

2007-01-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

OMG.... choosing my specialisation is giving me lots of headache (to be exact.. is de elective which cracking my brain now..) duno which to choose... cuz tis will determine my future?? *even though wat we studying now.. won't apply to nx time our career in de future... not forgtting my li xiang...
but deadline is tml... so todae must at least put my choice first...

first dae of sch todae after de 2 week holi... not a gd start though... cuz was down wif flu and cough... didn't really pay attention in class... was making myself well.... lucky todae was a short dae... went back home to rest striaght after sch.... it didn't really become better... no choice but went to c doc in de evening... cuz my bro also goin to c anyway... so went to there together...
wth... i thought it is juzz a common flu and cough... but ltr de doc told me tat it look like a signal of a asthma... cuz i gt asthma record be4 when i was young... tat was quite ages ago though...

Happy new yr to all my fren and reader out there... rem stay healthy... health is impt...
N happy bdae to xueli....

goin to hav an early nite todae....

PREFECT MATCH PART 2...!!!!

2006-12-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

Short post

Prefect match part 2 is out.... whoever wan to watch it.. it will be at my frenster profile... qin duo duo zhi chi leh... haha... after watching it... u can leave ur feedback and comment or even any enquiry on my tagboard... thks thks... =)

todae entry is to promote our production onli...

2006-12-20T03:18:00.000+08:00

realised tat i was such an inconsistent blogger... blame it to my laziness... hahas... but i promise if i gt de time.. i will try to post as much as i could... =)

it is 3.20am now...kinda of tired...but can't get to slp...cuz waiting for "sthg" so call impt..and tat "sthg" refering to my soccer match ltr tonite..liverpool vs arsenal... though it is juzz a carling cup... but as long as it was liverpool who is playing... it was always nice to watch... plus now is holi... kinda getting into tis bad slp-late, wake-up-late habit...

the rain keeps pouring for de last fews dae... nice and cooling for de night but bad weather for noon...

anyway tml will be the launch of our video poduction PART 2... rem to stay tuned..!!! =))

2006-12-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

received a call from my mum on tues... and guess wat.. she called me told me tat i had received a warning letter from my school... i could heard some anger from her tone... she thought tat i been skipping lesson... wat the.. ok.. nvm.. den after i reach home.. i go and read tat letter... wanna to noe which moduale i being "absent"... it was my eg2158 (object oriented programming) which i did not expected... super ridicules la... if it was 2002.. i will be more understanding.. cuz i always late for tat lec de ma.. hahas...

den went to check wif gordon.. cuz he also hav receive the same letter as me... so our final conclusion was tat it was de system fault... and decided to complain to our teacher...
so we got our lab practical todae.. tat also mean we could able to tel her abt tis issue... and she told us tat she can't do anything... wat worse was... she did not even gif a damn care of it also... argghh... say of tis really can make me boil...

last sem... i got my first sub fail... tis time is my first time got a warning letter... so wat nx..?? pls not another first bad thing happen again nx time... oh ya... btw todae i flunk my EG2158 test.. i got 6 out of 15... and it consist of 15% overall... simply my jinx module for tis sem...

2006-12-05T00:57:00.000+08:00

juzz came back from KL trip ytd... was quite an enjoyable time over there... here are those pic which i had taken during the trip...

At Malaysia Expressway on the way to KL... The journey took us ard 5 hr to reach..

CAught a pic of the famous Twin tower in KL..

First thing when we reach our hotel... first pic taken over there...

Reach our hotel at ard 3pm... The hotel which we staying was "hotel capitol"... heard tat it was 4 star hotel... started our shopping spree soon after we had settle down... our night event... went to red-box (singapore known it as k-box)... It was so much much different from singapore lor... the room was ard 5 time larger than those we always went in singapore... and plus there hav 5 mic in the room... and the price rate was so much cheaper den singapore lor... if wan go k... must go there... super WORTH it... hahas

2nd dae
basically spend the most of the time walking... shopping at sungei wang and Time Square...

A indoor Theme Park in Time square...

The theme park look fun and interesting... but due to time limit... did not manage to play all those... quite a pity la...

Ended up did not really manage to shop the whole Time square... cuz it was freaking big lor... was much bigger than our singapore biggest shopping mall vivo city... OMG... hahas..

Firework which we get to watch in our room... it was nice..

TAken wif my brother...

3rd dae...

Holidae had finished... it time to return back... sign out from hotel in late morning... reach singapore ard 4pm... den went striaght to SGH... cuz my grandfather last few dae being admitted to hospital again... this time round was much more serious den last time... he now in "intermediate care area" ward.. but de condition now was much better den de last few dae le... he look much energetic but he look super thin le lor... "life is so fragile.. u won't know wat u will happen the nx moment.."

so we stay over there till ard 8pm... den went back home after tat...

went to mit xueli after i came back.... cuz gt sthg to pass to her...

nx week common test liao... shit... i still did not even started my revision... i noe tis time i won't get so li xiang de result as last time le... but i will juzz try my best now ba...

make a wish

2006-11-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

if u give mi a wish now... i'll hope tat wat i did just now will be a success... i reali hope so... i hope tat wat i did did not hurt u unknowingly... i really hope so... i duno if u will give mi just once anot... but i'll prove to u in actions tat u wont bear to leave if we really together de...

give mi some positive ans ba... pls... i need luck...

SPECIAL POST...

2006-11-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

somehow juzz could'nt get to slp tonite... if u wan to noe wat big thing is bothering abt me.?? wat i can say is really a big thing... and it is sthg which is very IMPT to me.... and it will hugely affect my emotion (happy or sad) in my life...
not trying to be exagerated.. but it is true...

though i noe tat it is still not sincerity enough... and i dun noe wat else to say... as de only thing i can say is i can prove tat wat i say is really wat i mean de....

no lie no hesitation BUT straight from my heart...

juzz hoping when i wake up in de nx morning... it will be wat i hoping to see... if not there really nth else more i can do le...

2006-11-21T02:19:00.000+08:00

That's My Goal

Hmmmm yea yea yeaaa

You know where I come from
You know my story
You know why I'm standing here
Tonight
Please don't go
Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear
Make it right

Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Please don't go
You know that I need you
I can't breathe without you
Live without you
Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
No more

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Well I won't stop believing
That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you
I'll mean it forever and ever
Ever and ever

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
(Oh I'm ready)
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
(That's why I'm here babe)
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

.

2006-11-21T01:22:00.000+08:00

dear readers. i back~. srry for not making any entry for such a long time..
actually wanna to change blogskin juzz now, but after cutting and editting those template,
the pic was not display.. so figuring wat actually went wrong..
guess wat..?? found out tat de fault was on de template..
this show tat sometimes in life, there won't be things which will always went smooth..
ended up, lazy to change new blogskin, so juzz make an entry tat all..
ok.. one gd news.. did i mention be4 tat my blog for de last few entries.. i had tried to post pics in my blog.. but had always fail..
as for now.. my blog had recovered back... so nx time i will try to post more pics in my blog..
such i could hav lesser words to write.
as sometimes there's pics which can replace for words..

2006-11-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

sch was short for todae... from 12pm to 3pm instead of goin to sch at 10am... cuz dun hav de semseter proj lesson... and it will stay like tis for throughout de whole sem... but it will be for odd week onli... so de 3 hr for every wednesdae will be having math.... nx week, fri, there will be a math quiz liao... OMG... die le.... tis time frankly speaking i really did not noe how to do a SINGLE question.... from de past 2 weeks, teacher had taught alots liao... but it seem tat there nothing went into my brain.... tis time dun noe how already... pls save me!!!

after sch... went to yishun to c doc... it been such a looong~ time i visit a doc... cuz de past 1 week... my throat was quite pain... den after de doc examine my body and my throat... he told me tat i having a throat infection... den he told me to refrain from eating fried food, spicy food, bleh bleh~... wah.. can't eat so many thing le... haizzz.... oh ya... and he gave me one medicine which its doesn't look like a medicine... it look more like a sweet for me lor... cuz it is for sucking de... and de taste look excatly like erm... forgt wat brand of sweet liao... hahas... after tat... took bus went striaght back hm...

dui jue superstar will be back nx week.... and it will be telecast on every wed and thur... 8pm on channel U... must always watch le... LOLs...

2006-10-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

it had been ard almost 2 week i last blog..?? lols... ok.. todae dun noe how come i juzz suddenly hav de "feel" of bloggin... though there really nth which make me exciting to make me blog... but juzz tat hav tat urge to blog...

first of all... sch had already reopened for like goin to 2 week le... though there gt lot of thing happened... but due to lazyness.. won't mention all of them... maybe i will juzz briefing mention some of it... sch really not tat bad as wat i think... but to some extent i still not really adapting to early-slp-early-wake-up habit... but tis sem de timetable i can tel u tat it goin to be more slack den my previous sem... bad thing abt it was tat toward exam de period.. i comfrim goin to struggle le... die die die... but nvm... juzz tk one step by one step den c how after tat ba... lols... XD

during tis 2 weeks... haven't been "pon" any lesson yet... and gt lots of breaking time... due to some lesson ended early etc.. if not usually hav one hr break every dae onli... except for thur (2 hr)... oh ya... for some reader who still dun noe... our sch lib had opened a cafe... erm... can say at least gt a place to chill during our break... so tat mean if our break was long on tat dae... we will surely went there de....

kinda of addicted listening to one particular song "ai shi kong"... find it super super nice... de lyrics was quite meaningful... but de best sentence i like best from it was "rang ni zhou... wo bu zai shi wo... "
if anyone nv heard of it be4.. u can click on "wishlist" on my blog... there gt tat song... enjoy listening... =)

Class outing..

2006-10-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

sch starting in ard 3 more dae time... tat really fast... and todae post will most likely be de last post be4 my sch reopen... i guess anyone was like really eager to sch reopen... but i dun noe wat wrong wif me... haven't start sch already dun feel like goin to sch le... maybe because i dun like tat stressful period ba... nid to face book, note everydae le... or maybe i really not tat interested in goin back to sch le ah... cuz aiya dun noe la... or maybe i dun really like our new timetable ba... nid to endure everydae long hr in sch plus night lesson on fri... dun hav any "feel" at all of goin back to sch lor... haizz...

todae went to orchard wif my poly classmate... went to pizza hut at lucky plaza... overall still ok ok la... actually de main point was the meeting part is the important one. However in 3 days time we can meet until dont want to meet liao..

after pizza... went to cine actually wanna to catch a movie de... either robin-B-hood or world trade centre... but ended up did not watched both of them... went upstair to play pool instead... hahas...

tis few daes de weather was quite bad ah due to haze(although it had improved these fews dae)... was kinda of got affect by it.... feeling not tat well anyway... ok.. reader and frens out there.. rem to tk gd care of ur health...

I wanna to watch rob-B-hood.... ANYONE wanna to watch...??

1 week left to sch reopen...

2006-10-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

5 weeks of holi had been gone already... thinking back wat i had been doing during de past 5 week.. bascially wasn't nth much... de main focus was on my driving... and i had achieved wat i had planned for it... passed stage 3 le... and todae juzz passed my final theory test... yeah... hahas.. finally can get to book a slot for my practical test liao... overall can say 3/4 of it had been done... now waiting for my practical test to arrive... won't reveal my test date on my blog due to some reason.. but if anyone wanna to noe.. can come to ask me de.... =)

oh ya... a happy autumn festive to everyone of my reader who r reading my blog now yea.... todae saw something disaster on de way to driving centre... a fire break out at one of de fac (at yee tee..) de fire was fierce and wats more was.. saw some gas container in de fac.. tat time in my mind... surely gone case liao... and there still no sight of any fire engine at tat time... OMG.. lucky no one was injured or hurt during tis misfortune (heard from de radio on de shuttle back to mrt station de time..) and it also did mention abt there indeed a numbers of explosion at tat time... anyway will get to found out more abt it... *curious*... wat caused de fire to start... someone playing of candle or playing of lantern over there...?? hahahs.. if anyone noe wat caused all these to happen... can tag to tel me yea.. =)

i wan my last week to be at de max...

happy children dae & happy bdae to kt...

2006-10-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

first of all.. be4 i start writting todae post... let me wish my best buddy, kt, a very happy bdae yea... every yr nv fail to celebrate his bdae de... cuz another reason is cuz children dae also fall on todae... hahas...

here how to spend our celebration wif him... though not really tat memorable dae to rem... but at least all of us put in tat effort to celebrate wif u... so u must be happy... hahahas.. first destination city hall... went there walk walk... den went to swensen to buy a cake for him... swensen ice cream cake sia.. hahas.. ok... i'm juzz wanna to make it as big as possible.. hahas.. after tat went to marina bay's steamboat... tat almost a yr didn't went there for steamboat liao...
went to play foosball juzz outside de arcade soon after our "steamed"boat... cannot imagine tat play tis game also can make u sweat so much sia... everyone played till super engross lor... especially de last game.. play till de machine also being carried up... LOLs.. super super funny...

den after tat... took train home liao lor... tk alot of pic during de trip hm.. and almost all of them are stupid action... aya.. too bad can't post de pic at my blog... and everyone of us were making a nuisense of ourself at de station and in de train sia... lols... simply fun...

actually todae be4 goin to mit them de time... wanna to go singaporepool to buy 4d de... dun noe how come i suddenly think back of tis number.. and gt very strong feeling at it lor... den i was late liao ma mitting them... so did not make a trip over to singaporepool... den after i came back hm juzz now... found out tat de number came out sia... tis was de 2nd time liao lor i miss de same number... arghh... though i not tat kind who really fancy of buying 4d de... is when i gt tat feeling den i will go and buy de... and todae there's juzz too many coincidence liao la... but too bad i did not went to buy... anyway now i unstd one thing... and tat was... wat is meant for u.. no matter wat it will ended up be urs... and wat doesn't meant for u... it will forever won't be urs de...

a learning experience....

2006-09-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

was watching yu le bai fen bai while my dad came back... den had a very gd chat wif him.... talking abt lots of stuffs abt outside life and experiences... realised lots and lots of things which i did not noe.... 1st of all was tat my aunt (my mother's side) had brought a terrace cum condo type of house... they moving in at de end of tis yr... woow.... heard from my dad tat... it cost ard 700 plus thousands sia.... n it had 5 stories high level excluding a basement.... so i started to ask him.. wat does my uncle and aunt working as... he told me tat my aunt work as erm.. forgt wat liao.. hahas.. but quite common de.... den my uncle was working as businessman... if not wrong is sell insurance de.... den his post was quite high la... i think is manager... woow... den after tat me started to think of my dream again... hahas... at least i find someone which i can follow as example... must be as successful as my uncle or even more successful den him if possible la... den i told my dad abt some of my dream in de future... though he did listen and did not say anything... but from wat i can c... he dun really believe tat i can do it... even though he wan me to do well in de future... but i can assure him tat i will surely do it let him c my result de... as wat is my dream in de future was tat i will buy a bungalow wif it's own parking lot for my car (as my dream car --> Lamborghini)... beside tat... still gt lots more of my dream...
hahas... ok.. i might be dreaming... but i won't rule out tis possiblity de... unless it really impossible... anyway if it's really impossible... but u had de determination... u still can able do it de... as wat addidas had said.. "impossible is nth".... HAHAs..

after tat my dad still told me tat... how to become a successful person in tis world... two things to rem... one is noe how to present urself well... another factor was noe how to write well... mmm.. it makes quite sense and logic...

ok.. from now onward must work hard toward my target and my dream....

2006-09-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

wanna to make a post ytd... but due to no mood.. ended up didn't post... now shall update on wat happened de last fews dae... didn't feel like writting so much... so i will write those interesting things which happened onli...

23/9 sat

A very big and special dae... o well... noe y.. cuz todae is my fren de sis da xi re... me together wif ws, pd and dennis was being invited... tis was de first time attending a wedding dinner wif my frens onli... kinda of werid werid.. hahas... den we still gt dress code de sia... had say be4 hand... we all wear till like very mature... hahas.. kt even wear a blazer lor cause is his sis wedding ma... found out tat blazer can make until a person become super high class lor... hahas..
mit up at 4pm... dennis drove us there... btw it was at harbourfront.. upon reaching... found out tat there altogether ard 60 plus table sia... wow... tat many... hahas.... but nx time my marriage will be even more... LOLS.... but anyway 60 plus table is counted as alot liao lor... cuz last time work at raffle hotel de time... also not so many table... but compare it to RH... RH is much more better la... hahas... reached there quite late... but we still not de latest ah... reach there still waited for at least one hr like tis somemore.. lols... oh ya... when we sat down on de our table... surely gt waiter came to us to ask us wat drink we like to hav de ma... den me and ws order a red wine... tis was my first time i drank red wine sia... found it not so nice... hahas... den tat ws drank one cup liao... face suddenly become very red sia... hahahas... den dennis say "dinner still hav not being serve already like drunk liao"... super funny lor... lols...

de wedding started of wif a smart enterance of some commando... cuz de male was a commando ma... den gt one part whereas they nid to get past a stage like tis... de male nid to sang a song for his xin nian ma... guess wat... he sang tong hua sia... suddenly like become peaked up... hahas..

attending much of tis type of wedding function can help u make a gd idea of nx time ur marriage in de future... anyway i believe tat nx time my wedding rite.. i will make it very grand as possible de... (cannot blame... Pisces is a xiang xiang li hen fong fu de horoscope...) opps.. xD hahas...

overall de food over there was still acceptable ah... den after tat dennis drove us back hm liao... took quite a number of pic.... will try to upload some of it... if possible...

MAY KELVIN AND KIT YEE STAY HAPPILY TOGETHER FOREVER...

26/9 tues (todae)

juzz now logged into frenster... nth else better to do ma.. so look through back my profile de testi which everyone wrote for me since i first registered it... 1 thing i had realised while looking through... tat was alots of thing had changed liao... things will always changed slowly... u won't able to found out until u realised it.... another thing was tat... while reading it... de emotion was like happy cum sad... happy was tat... when u reading it.. u will somehow think back to de past de happy moment those who u once very close wif... and de sad thing was tat u had lost contact wif those pple liao...but anyway it is a part n parcel of our life.... some pple left ur live slowly... some pple came into ur live... must always content wif wat we hav now... always cherish them be4 one dae they leave ur live.... =)

2006-09-20T11:06:00.000+08:00

tis post will summarise what had been happening in de past few daes...

16 sept (sat)

another dae of production (filming)... tis time it is another bball scene... as almost de same as in de part 1... but juzz tat de storyline is different.. went back hm first after filming (somehow it does not went smooth on tat dae... did not finished up wat shld hav finished) after tat went to town wif ws,kt,pd and jl... to acc kt to buy present for his sis... his sis is getting marry on tis coming sat... and me also had been invited together wif ws, pd and dennis .. hahas.. so funny lor.. as we also bu shi hen ren si his sis de... ended up.. our trip was not fruitful as he did not find a suitable present for her... so after tat we went back to yishun to play lan... play till ard 11 plus like tis went back hm liao...

17 sept (sun)

a trip to zoo todae... actually it was a class garthering events de... but ended up was like ard 9 pple like tis attended.. hahas.. sian diao... o well nvm... bu yao wei le ta men spoilt our enthusiasm.. we still went ahead to our plan... reach zoo at ard 12pm plus like tis... woow... i really forgtton when is my last time i visited de zoo.. hahas... den we play a games which designed by lingwei and jianlong... me,wh and jh was in de same group... de game was quite interesting la... can say not tat hard and not tat easy to complete... during de game... our grp still went to kfc to hav our lunch.. hahas.. we still able to get 2nd placing leh... li hai ba.. hahas.. but de 2nd placing was out of de 3 grp onli... lols... so after tat... took bus headed back to amk.... den in amk... me, kt, adian and jh went to play pool at kpool... de rest of them went back hm... woow~... wat a long time i did not went there le... last time there can say is my "home" ground leh... opps.. hahas.. but not now le... we played less den an hr todae... cuz adian mitting her fren at yishun... den me and kt acc her go there lor since we still got de time... went there for like a while onli... den headed back to hm by bus at de interchange... juzz in time for de match...

18th sept (mon)...

wake up very early in de morning... ard like 8am plus... went to bbdc to hav my driving lesson... now i can unstd tat y when u tired it will be better not drive ur car... hahas.. tis will be my first and de last time to book early lesson le... after de lesson... headed back hm to hav some rest first... cuz ltr mitting up wif ws, kt, jl, pd and wh for charlet... be4 tat... ws told me who will be goin there ltr on... some was last min decision to go... they are xueli, dorren, connie, jie le, yongsheng and lousie... was quite stunned when heard some of them will be goin also... hahas...
we reached there ard 4pm plus.. checked in... and den we went to play arcade over there upon waiting de rest arrive.. slowly everyone arrived, including peiqin, seowsuan and dennis... played pool wif kt and xueli a while be4 went to hav our dinner... walked like so far from de charlet.. and we finally find our destination... den we order some dishes and rice lor... woow... tat was cool.. so many pple being together having dinner... hahas... ok.. throughout de dinner... i think de main focus will be me... due to something (did not wan to elaborate abt it)... but i had expected it liao... hahas... after de dinner... xueli took cab hm.. den de rest of us headed back to our charlet...
fast forward-->
played game... forfit gt safetly kiss (translate to eng) and a cup of alcohol in different games... kanna one time wif jianlong de safetly kiss and also gt one cup of alcohol... overall de charlet was quite smooth... de nx morning checked out... headed back hm to hav a gd rest..

19th sept (tues)

slp at 11am... wake up at 3pm plus like tis... went to dennis' factory to film... but todae all de scene dun hav me de... but went there to help out lor... ok... after fews dae of filming... i can say tat tis time de production will be better... much better den de part 1... so far i think la... hahas.. cannot imagine tat we can film till so late... end at 10pm plus goin to 11pm... went back hm striaght after tat... cuz result goin to out liao ma... if u wan to ask me abt de result... to me.. i feel ok la.. hai hao... not tat happy and not tat sad... cuz i feel tat i can do better den tat... but no matter wat will try harder again in nx sem de..

tis is my result..

mathematices A
industrial electronic A
microprocessor A
entrepreneurship B+
eda tools B+
data &network communication A
communication skill B

gpa: 3.71

check my timetable for nx sem liao... walau... make no difference from last sem lor... no more life on fri again... gt night lesson on fri again... arghhh.... off break on tues... i can onli say tat... wat a LOUSY timetable i got again...

todae post was long... therefor i will end it le... will post soon again... =)

2006-09-16T02:13:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.. had been vanished for almost a week... back to blog... but first of all de post for todae will be short... juzz to try out c whether isit still working anot after so long nv blog liao (juzz an excuss not to write alots).. hahas.. -_-".. last few daes my life was boring... hoping tis coming few daes... it will be interesting... will be occupied wif programs (production,charlet, zoo etc)... will elaborate more on de nx post... actually todae de main focus was to mention tat there will be a BIG thing happening on tis coming SUN.. tat will be 2 super big matches kickoff on tat dae... and tat is CHELSEA VS LIVERPOOL... and MAN U VS ARSENAL on de same dae... a must must(X10) watch matches...

anyway result will be out nx week.... started to get wrry le... i nid lucks... as onli luck will help me now...

ok.. will end todae post... told u it will be short... indeed it was... =)

Stay tune for de nx post... will post soon again...

2006-09-07T01:10:00.000+08:00

todae woke up at 9am... went to bbdc for my driving lesson... tis fews dae had been goin for my practical lesson... cuz my target was to complete all my practical lesson by de end of tis sem holi... and den sch reopen slowly wait for my practical test... tat is my target...
ok.. todae i think was my best performance for my driving among de last fews dae of de holi... last fews dae when driving i was like kinda of "my physical was presence but my soul and heart was not there"... make lots of stupid mistk... den todae was much more better... tat look more like me ma... hahahahas... omg.. i praising myself... lols... pass stage 1 liao.. now processing stage 2... and todae went through 2.1, 2.2, and 2.3... 3 subj together... hahas... oh ya... BUT i fail my evualution... wth... hahahas... aya.. cannot blame.. i did not do any revision and practise at all... had book my nx evaluation on tis coming fri... tis time must pass ah... so i can go and book my practical test date liao... hahas..

after my evaluation and my practical lesson... nth to do... went to jurong east walk walk alone lor... after tat wh called me... den went wif him, pd and ws to national stadium to watch soccer... singapore vs china... hahahas.. de crowd was like wah... so many pple.. was so unexpected.. queue for de tix for like 30 min?? when we brought our tix.. it left like ard 15 more mins to half time le... so can u imgine tat... hahas.. btw helped ws and pd won some money for tis match.... dun nid i say le hor.. noe wat to do le rite.. lols.. erm.. me also gt win alittle bit la... cuz to make de match more interesting when watching it ma.. anyway de match ended 0-0... den after de match tk bus to cityhall to hav our dinner... home sweet home after tat...

edit: actually todae gt wendy's bbq charlet.. but ended up nv went... omg... feel very bad... @-@

staying up ltr tonite... FRANCE VS ITALY... on no... there's no more any headbutt to watch tis time round le... hahas.. will it be de repeat of world cup final...?? i dun think so ba... cuz france will be de winner tis time round... =)

HoliDae....

2006-09-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

exam finally over... in another word... is also de start of holi le... and now de mentally was juzz to play.... juzz wanna to enjoy tis holi to de fullest.... ok.. i shall post abt wat i had been doin de last fews dae.... i think it will be quite a long post for todae...

Wed
last paper on tat dae... ended at 6.30pm... headed to lavender to hav steamboat wif my classmate as a celebration of our last paper... eat till ard 9 plus... ok.. after tat... de main program of de dae had juzz arrived... went to mit kt and den went to zouk instead of MOS to find ws they all... cuz they already inside le... tat was de first time goin... exciting at first... was very curious wat is it really all abt... was quite crowded on tat dae... maybe due to wed la.. ladies night ma... so was quite expected ah... ok... first impression and feeling when i went in was like... erm... super super weird... hahas... maybe still not adapted it yet (ok... wo zhi dao i tat person who not really very fast adapt to new environment so fast de.. nid some time to adapt to it) den like alittle bit sian sian like tis... but after tat.. after adapt it slowly.... de feeling and atmostphere had slowly change le.. won't elabroate more on wat happen inside.... but can say tat de first feeling when i first went in and after tat de feeling was totally different... and i realised wat is enjoying life is all abt... there really no stress... no thinking of other things etc in there... was juzz relaxing and enjoying urself over there... reached hm at 5am... slpt at 6am...

Thur
wake up at 11am... went back to my old sch.. SEMBAWANG SEC SCH... 5 yr of memories in tis sch... tis time round... de sch system is much more better den last yr... in such de way tat de security guard let us in.. otherwise we will be waiting outside de sch like last yr... went up to de hall... den watch performance... den walk walk ard de sch... alot of thing has changed... one thing tat nv changed was de apple tea tat sold in de canteen.... de taste of it was so different from wat sold outside... even though de brand n de packaging was de same... hahas... den after tat... went to go and c teacher chat chat tis all lor... ALWAYS nv fail to do whenever we in our sec sch... was de piano which was located outside de general office.... hahas... recall back one of my dream which i had said last time... though i noe it will be quite unrealistic... but i still gt de believe tat if i wan... i think i will able to do it...
after tat we went to ps walk walk play arcade till evening... den weesiang went to his cousin bdae... dennis and peiqin went hm... and den me and kt went to play pool at grassroot lor... mmm... quite a long time nv play le... evenutally at first... lost de interest in pool... due to some reason la... but now... erm... started to get a little bit of interest back le... tis time also cuz of some reason also ah... hahas.... be4 went to grassroot... went back to sch(nyp) to hav some bite cuz still on de waiting list ma... den saw xueli in sch's mac wif one of her fren... after tat went to grassroot... den play till ard 8pm like tis... after tat home sweet home....

Fri
mit up wif eesiong sr gordon and wh... went to orchard... main purpose is to buy clothing... walked from wisma > taka > paragon > heeren > plaza singapura > heeren > pacific plaza > far east plaza. We spend like 8 hours walking around in town wow lol. At PS that time we went to have our lunch after that we go to the arcade. PS and arcade AGAIN... hahas.... oh ya... i realised tat my feeling is really really quite accurate.... y do i say tat leh... cuz ytd while walking wif them... i suddenly gt one feeling tat i will be goin to bump into a person... tat person can say i dun noe her de... but i noe she from our course.... cuz saw her be4 during exam time ma... and indeed after tat i really saw her... was juzz a sudden feeling onli la... not wat u all thinking abt ah... hahas... but saw quite alot of familier face todae...
fast forward----
walk till ard 10pm like tis... went to smb as usual.. for our fri gathering session (supper time).... den chat chat till ard 1am like tis... home sweet home after tat...

sat
staying at hm currently for now... tat y able to write tis post... hahas...

(MAYBE) upcoming event
sun-> MAYBE goin to toa payoh (did i spell wrongly.. lols) to watch jue dui superstar tml.... cuz some of my fren will be participating in it... still considering wanna to go anot...

mon-> MAYBE goin to clubbing again... but tis time wif wendy they all... still not yet comfirm goin yet anot... shall c how first ba...

if there any thing which i forgt to mention or miss out... will edit again...

short post

2006-08-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

a short post for todae... 1 paper had gone... tat is my dnc... apparently todae de paper was quite easy ah... but due to my mind was not tat functioning tat well for todae... so overall for it can say is normal... i still able to use ard 30-40 min to think of one ques.. and tat one ques consisting of juzz TWO marks... can u imagine it... However, in de end... i still can't able to recall back... but i still hav write something la instead of leaving it blank...
nx upcoming papers will be on tis coming fri nx tue and wed... tat also mean tat i still hav lots of time to study... but de most worrying subj will be de last paper... de king of de core moduale... i nid some recipes on how to score well for tat moduale... after exam i told myself tat i will go and enjoy to my fullest during my holi... starting on my last dae of my paper... after exam... will be goin to clubbing le... wow... finally... i able to get de taste of it liao...
however for now... must endure for at least one more week of stress...

3 more paper to go... and my holidae will begin after tat...

wo xiang gen dong ni
chrous:
everytime i tried to know u better but we ended up having a distance, is it because we used the wrong words or action? actually i want to know u better is not because i want to hold on u tightly, but am afraid that u will forget that someone will love u forever

2006-08-17T22:31:00.001+08:00

exam is getting closer... juzz few dae away man... started to wrry alittle bit liao... last few dae was like keep revising my mircoproccessor... cuz tat is my worst subj of all... juzz to reminded tat i had flunk my tis moduale in my common test... so u all shld noe y i so worry abt tis subj liao ma... haha... i really CANNOT afford to fail it... though passing is one thing... getting a gd grade for it is another thing... i noe tat if i dun work hard for tis 2 week... i gotta to regret it very much... realise tat when u studying sthg u are weak at... u will feel some how of quite demoralised when u can't able to do it... but it will be otherwise when u are doing sthg which are gd at... but apparently, i still dun hav enough confidence of all de moduale yet... =(

during tis period of time... i will most likely won't be posting anymore to due exam... will post my nx entry after it... unless there is a necessary...

life is like watching a show... u cannot change de whole story of it...even though u can rewind back to de previous part... however de outcome will be also de same... so it told us tat to treasure de time and the thing we has now... if not once it has gone... it will be too late by den le... and not by trying to rewind it back again...

random post...

2006-08-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

wake up quite early tis morning... actaully wanna to go back to sch to study de... but when i woke up de time... it's started to rain le... so after tat dun feel like goin back to sch liao... ended up... stayed at hm.... and den stay at hm de whole dae liao... did some study in de noon for a while... after studying... had been looking at my com almost de whole dae long... basically todae i had been using de com asking pple ard to send me songs... hahahas... and now my com are loaded wif JAY and WANG LEEHOM songs le... if added together... i think if added both together gt more den 50 songs which sang by them... all thks to ys and jl for sending them...

btw there gt another firework display ltr tonite at esplan... but i think i goin to miss it again le.... =(...

anyway happy belated bdae to weesiang... as his bdae fall on 9th of august which also on national dae.... had a great time on tat dae... but de most happiest person i think on tat dae shld be de bdae boy ba... cuz he got 2 big surprise especially arranged for him... can c tat he super happy lor after receiving de surprise... am i rite..?? haha... ok.. now i had one request if can... i also wan "surprises" on my bdae too... i think u guys noe wat to do le hor... haha...

2006-08-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

todae somehow i like had taken slping pill like tis... slp almost de whole dae... juzz like a dead person... haha... miss another sundae teamo training... dun noe how long nv go liao... haha.. paisei... MAYBE nx week den will go ba... must do some excersie back le... and most imptly it can help me to get tan... but must c nx week my laziness will be at which level first ba... haha

ytd in de morning... went to woodland lib to do some revision together wif kt... ended up can say juzz flip through pages of my data and communication note onli... study like for less den half an hr onli ah.. after tat suggested go to cck to play pool... play like almost 2 hr like tis.. haha... ok... i can say tat my pool skill is deproving.. or can also say tat his pool skill is improving ba... if both of it combined together equal = no fight le... as y i like tis say leh.. cuz ytd i kanna qi long zu... but ok la... de score now 2-2.. both of us gt qi long zu each other for 2 time each.. so now is a draw le... haha...
after tat went to jurong east mrt station cuz dennis waiting for us to bring us over to expo together to watch superband live... ok.. de winner was milu peng... a well deserve winner... all in all de concert last for ard 3 hr... after tat.. dennis drove us to changi airport to hav our "dinner"... it is de place where my dream, my li xiang, my ambitious lie on...

2 more week goin to hav my last battle of my tis sem.... and it will determine my future and whether my li xiang can come true anot... and i dun wan to not studying hard for tis 2 week and den tk back my result and regret for not working hard eventually... so starting tml... i had set my mind to start my so call self study le... so anyone wanna to go and study... can jio me out to study also... i will be more den willing to go out de... haha...

hope "tat thing" wont affect me for de time being ba...

2006-07-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

minutes ago... my feeling was very uneasy... it was really undescribeable.. but now after settled now... and thinking through... realising wo ai de ren already hav her ai ren already... wat i can actually do... continue thinking abt de impossible...?? wat the use... lots and lots of thing to say.. but now... still able to say ma.. srry reader... let me complain somemore... cuz i really cannot find another person who will be able to listen to me somemore at tis hr... is already 2am.. somemore tml having sch... and i having a lab test tml... wth... is juzz coming at de wrong time... so de only method i can use to express my feeling is on tis blog... wat more i can say.. nth really much... de onli thing i can say is tat there will be my wishes and blessing for u... stay happy always...
ok... todae will really be de END of de chapter le... i think i really nid some peace for a moment... leave me alone for time being... thks so much.... now i juzz wish i will be lying down on a patch of grass.. closing my eye and think back of de past (happy and unpleasant memory wif u ard) de LAST more time... letting down my tear... and after tat... me,benjamin, vowed won't go and think of it anymore again...

todae will be de END of de story....

2006-07-31T01:49:00.001+08:00

BACK!!!

2006-07-22T02:28:00.000+08:00

after almost one week of disappearance from internet... i finally is back... my com is finally fixed... but though isn't still not really fully repair... as my cd rom do not noe wat had happen... starting de time... it able to function... but after tat couldn't able to read de drive... not bad ah.. my cd rom still gt mood swing de sia... haha...

update on wat had happen during the time when my com were "dead"... and tat period of time... can be counted as my low point of my life... lots lots of bad things came at one go at tat time... de worst thing of the bad thing which had happen was tat... tat week took back our common test result... i FLUNK one of my moduale... and tat is miroprocessor... juzz couldn't believe tat i can eventually fail... tat papar or can say tat moduale is counted as de most difficult subject among de rest... though is onli consist 20% of de overall percent... however tat time was so damn disappointed and sad... as also tis moduale carriage de most credit (6 credit) among de rest of de module... but wat is over is over le... it cannot be undone... so now my main focus is on my final semseter exam... really pray very very hard tat i could able to do well on it... BENJAMIN... must really endure tis fews week... if not my future li xiang won't be able to shi xian le...

lots of thing nid to be done tis coming week.... 2 common test... 2 projs...
tues- deadline for semseter proj (60% completed onli)
wed- com skill common test (consist of 40%)
thur- eg 2098 test (consist of 10%)
still got another ICA3 for entreprenurship to be completed...

todae in sch somehow my soul like wasn't in my body... thinking and wandering around....
computer can be reformat... but can human be reformat..??

2006-07-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

ytd night ws kt pd dennis jh and wh came over my hse to watch WC 3rd/4th placing match... lucky there no extra time for ytd match.. so it ended at 5am... after de match dennis drove everone of them home... it was always so convienient to hav a car... anyway well done to Germany of winning the 3rd placing spot... tonite goin to be final which also mean de last match of de WC... is a MUST WATCH match...
tonite will it be really a ciao(meaning byebye in french) italy... or a oui(if i did not spell wrongly.. meaning champion),france ma... shall stay tuned for it... anyway while i watching on my tv ltr tonite.. i will be rooting for france till de final whistle... already planning of skipping tml morning lecture le... opps... =/.. haha..

sun (todae):
wake up ard 4pm.. haha... stay at home de whole dae... till evening went out to hav dinner at yishun safra to celebrate my cousin bdae... de restaurant name "eatiz" if i did not rem wrongly.. but it is still under jack's place... de atmosphere over there is great...

my com is getting worse every passing dae... it will be juzz a matter of time be4 i will reformat my com... as de result... lot of data in my com will be lost le... =(

2006-07-08T02:32:00.000+08:00

wat the hell my life is getting on... first of all... after slping like ard 10 hr of slp ytd... and yet... todae i still feel slpy in class... ok... tis is really nth ah... but todae a incident had happened... 2 of my classmate came into a fight todae... name will not be mention due to protect their reputation... was kinda of stunned when one of them gif a punch onto another person face... at first... i thought was like play play onli... but i was wrong... they really fired up... he actually wanna to return to him a punch back... but ended up he didn't do it... though it happened in ELP... but lucky there no one saw it and noe abt it.. except for our classmate...
tis is onli some etc of bad things which happened onli... lesson end at 9pm... went back hm... and den went out again for our usual prata garthering...

be4 went to mit them... i did sthg which i did not imagine i will do it... which is sthg really really stupid and silly... tat thing i did not wan to say out... but it was very very silly of me... haha... didn't noe how come i will do it... maybe tat time... my heart was telling me to do it ba... but sometime sthg can really make a person do things which is silly... but i guess tat person shld noe is me who did it... it was kinda of obvious in some ways... but ok la... when u nid someone who is impt to u de time... though tat person is not me... and when u turn ard de time will not be me... but at least i still will let u noe tat there will be someone blessing for u and supporting u... even though, i am just a fren to u... and.. to mi... u are just a fren onli also le ba.. but u won't be left alone...

oh ya... btw wanna to aplogize to ws they all for waiting me for quite a long time juzz now...

its really difficuit to put on a strong side and to stay optimistic always...

srry for being selfish at times... but somehow time will prove everything... =)

sign off (3am... 8/7/2006.. sat)

2006-07-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

had been rushing project for de last fews dae... tis is de first proj which i do really can tk my life sia... not say diffi ah... but juzz tat we did it in last min... our last min was like todae presentation... we started doin on tues... 2 dae to do more den 60% of de proj(entre)... as de result... tues night slp at 5.30am... but not onli doin proj on tat time... but also plus watching soccer match on tat night... haha... slp for like 2 hr like tis... after tat mitting our group member at 8.30am de nx morning in sch to finalise de proj... den do till 11am like tis onli... cuz we mit ah bao gordon they all at bugis mrt station to go and buy things for our another proj(semster proj)... after everything is done... went back to sch to do our entre proj AGAIN... wah... tis is my first time of de semseter went back to sch twice on wed... which is eventually our one dae off... finally everything was done... went back back home finally at ard 6pm... was like damn tired lor.. reaching home... started to fever... Finally was sick.. everytime like wan to sick but nv sick... but tis time really sick liao... but not tat serious.. onli having a fever and a bad sore throat... tk few panadol... lucky tat my willpower is quite strong... de nx morning was feeling much better... pon de first lesson... EDA tool lecture... so to recapture more rest... btw de presntation for de entre was quite smooth... hope tat our effort.. though is last min work and not fully put in effort... it could able to tk us far... still gt 2 more proj to go... and also de last part of de entre ICA... haha...

dun feel like i was being myself... everything now was like juzz onli a vision without any feeling, emotion etc...

cong qian cong qian.. you de ren ai ni hao jiu... dan pian pian feng qian qian.. ba ju li chui de hao yuan...

2006-07-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

overnight at kt hse to watch soccer matches together wif wh,ws,dennis,jh and pd...
a shocker result ytd...
eng lost to portugal...
brazil lost to france...
tat also mean my dream final... england vs germany won't be happening... since england now had out(which they really deserve... of their boring style of playing)... i still hope tat germany could able to lift of de cup at de end of competition...
guess lots of pple lost money ytd on these matches... which also including me.. haha... ytd was de most money which i lost... won't say out de figuring... but can onli say less den hundred ba...
reach home at 7am de nx mondae... super tired... bath and went to slp le...
be4 went to kt hse to watch soccer... in de afternoon... went to play pool wif raymond at amk kpool... after tat went back home... in de evening... went to ps to hav dinner... dennis drove us there... whenever i sit in his car... i had de urge of driving also... my target... be4 start of semseter 2.. i will tk my driving license...

todae (sun)... woke up at 4pm... slp like no one business.. stay at home de whole dae... watched de 9pm show on channel u (tian shi.. wo ai ni)... very touching... if whoever watch.. will agree wif me... but some part of de story had make me recall back sthg in de past... anyway i will try my best not to think of it anymore... but however i will do wat de main character had done for de gal he like in de show... and tat is always be her gurdian angel... an zhong protect her and bless her... as wat he had done for her in de show...

finished my common test... overall... i still think can able to make it ba... hopefully.. except for my last paper... mircoprocessor... tat paper... Laughing out loud... can say my most diffi paper which i had done throughout my poly life... nvm.. wat is over is over... juzz pray hard now...

ok.. though common test had finished... but de most stressful is tis period of time... and tat is PROJECT.... 1 ICA and 1 proj report nid to hand in by tis coming thur... and de process of both proj are like less den 50% done... can u imgaine tat... 4 dae to do 2 proj... goin bersek soon...
oh ya... not forgtting my semseter proj too... forgt week wat nid to hand in... but tat one... process 0%...

2006-06-25T01:27:00.000+08:00

how can life be so uninteresting... keep doin back de same things every single of de dae... studying studying studying... how boring can it be... but could i able to choose... as tml will be de start of common test le... but i still not yet fully prepare... so tat y every dae at my back of my mind onli hav tis word "study".. i onli had myself to blame.. if i couldn't able to get gd grade... but i can feel tat my "fire" of studying is goin to extinguish soon le... hopefully tis "fire" could able to stay till at least for tis coming week for time being...

todae went to mos burger in smb to study... revise on my math and some of 2009 moduela.. i could onli say tat i still hav not regain back my confidence... as some ans there no ans...and there no math pro over there... and i still not sure my ans is rite or wrong... but ended up.. i juzz treat it as correct... cuz i did not wan to throughly think over it again... lols... after studying... went to amk for dinner... it such as long time did not went there le... after dinner went to kpool... even long time did not enter there le... did not noe when de last time i last enter there... recall back to de past... every week will at least go there once de... ok... dun say abt de past liao la... when we reach there... full house... so we went to arcade instead... Me kt ws and dennis play de bball game... shoot the ball in de net de... de lastest version in which can play up to four level... but every level there gt a limit of point which u nid to get in order to continue de nx level... den 4 of us.. 2 on 2... first partner... me and dennis vs kt and ws... we got ard 170 plus while they got ard 150... but we onli play till 2nd level... so noob... cannot blame.. first time playing ma... den after tat we play again.. tis time change partner... now become me and kt vs dennis and ws... tis time gt better equipped on how to play... so tis time... we finished up to de last level... got ard 300 plus... but still nv break de record la... its record 600 plus leh.. double of our point... can u imagine tat.. lols.. while they onli play till level 3... 3rd try... tis time me kt dennis vs pinda and ws... tis time round.. both of us play till de last level... but they got 400 plus tis time... highest point among de time we had played... dun look down tis game ah.. after playing.. can feel tat my back feel quite suan.. after bending forward shooting de ball for 3 conservative game.. lols... tis game can excerise ur hand... haha..

went back striaght home ater playing... cuz some of us wan to watch germany vs sweden match ma.. reach home juzz nice de match started liao... haha... final result 2-0 win to germany... sweden juzz deserve to lose and knock out... they juzz play simply lousy... but must gif some credit to germany.. they played quite well todae...

i can c tat when someone is boring... it can make a person to be very bo liao... as y i say tat leh... cuz todae someone added me in msn.. a person who i do not know who she is... here is how de convestation...

me: hi... who r u..??
crystal: hi... i'm crystal..
crystal:sorry i just add u cuz in the hotmail got those add.. then i add...
me: huh??
crystal: dun mind be fren wif me??
crystal:haha
me: how come my add will be in ur hotmail de??
me: lol... dun mind..
crystal: hmm... cuz u noe... when u receive a email.. then can also see all the links of other mails..
crystal: then i just try my luck.. see u got friendster
crystal: so i add..
me: oh.. icic.. haha..
crystal: hmm.. can u intro urself..or u busy.. nvm...
me:haha.. is alrite..
after introduce...
crystal: ur nick toking abt who??

*in my heart.. was like wat if i tel u who de person... as if u will noe tat person like tat... but i did not like tis say la...*

me: a person lor..
crystal:ok.. i wun busybody.. i respect u.. btw r u attache..??
me: erm.. no..
crystal: oo.. ic... so handsome thought u got a gf one.. haha

*was kinda of surprsie she like tis say.. haha... but in my heart was like... handsome den must hav gf de meh... den not handsome den won't hav gf..?? *

me: no la.. ha...
crystal: u r cute...
me: oh.. isit.. haha.. thks..
crystal: haha.. yupp.. i not joking.. its true...
me: haha... thks...
me: goin to do my stuff... bye

actually half of de reason i close down de window is because i will get "kong qu" when a person whom i first time chatting wif... and she/he asking me alot of my personal stuff.. not say i not frenly la.. but i dun like to reveal my personal thing to tat person whom i juzz get to noe him/her... but another half reason is because i went to watch de 2nd half of de match... haha..

its time to watch de 2nd match of de dae liao... argen vs mexico.. maybe tis will be de last match i goin to watch until tis coming fri.. due to common test...

anyway wish me gd luck for coming common test ba..

sign off (2.55am.. sun.. 25/6/2006)

study stUDY STUDY!!!!

2006-06-22T02:35:00.000+08:00

my daily life de last fews dae... had been studying studying studying.... last fews dae went back to sch to study... but todae went to sch a little bit later due to waking up late... cuz ytd been slping at 5am... watching soccer ytd night ma... england vs sweden leh... final result 2-2... den todae reach sch at 2pm ba... todae did not really study alot... as usual... after using up so many brain cell for fews hr... de last hr like tis... will somehow like discuss abt tonite de matches for world cup... so standard... tat is y been a hot topic nowadae.. (especially for guy)... tat really live up its reputation... haha.. but somehow... world cup had some bad influence to pple... it somehow will make pple tempted to buy or i can say bet ah... example for todae... we discuss abt tonite de matches... den kun was been tempted to it... and he was tat kind of won't bet one lor.. from his chareacter and appearance... but todae he cannot resisit it... another example was my another fren... in de evening mit up wif kt,ws,pd and dennis... went to douby dout to catch a movie (sliter)... be4 de show started... we went to pastemanic for dinner... den we started to chat abt world cup... lols... again... den he was tat kind of guy... also won't bet de lor... but todae he suddenly go and buy... kinda of surprise... lols... ok la... not say betting is bad... i find it is quite alrite ah... as long u noe ur limit... and juzz for de pleasure of de game onli... but de best is still not to bet la... ha...

fast forward---->
watch sliter... not tat digusting as wat it imagine la... but juz for some part of it onli... anyway is juzz 1 hr 30min show onli... watch till 11.30pm.. after tat... fast forward---> we went to marine bay... dennis drove his car todae... alot of funny and stupid thing happened while on de way to there... i won't say in detail la... cuz now rushing to finished up cuz matches starting soon le... lols... but if guys wan to noe de hua... can ask me personally... haha... ok... back to my soccer match le... cya guys again... bye..

oh ya... tis fews dae been finding quite kinda of werid ah.. had been online... but can't go to msn.. haha... but i will try to fix it asap... anyway won't been posting often tis fews dae... due to nx week having common test... so if whoever read my blog... shld noe wat to do liao hor... lols... still nid i say meh... hahaha... ok la... to those still dun get wat i mean... i meaning wish me gd luck... haha.. if u still can't c me online... can msg me or call or tag or even personally wish also can la... at least gt luck can liao... as i really nid it... ok la.. match starting soon le... gt time will update again...

sign off (3am... 22/6/2006.. thur)

2006-06-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

todae is de 1st dae of de 2nd week of holi le... went back to sch to do some study in de early afternoon... leave sch at 2pm.. went to mit kt at admirtly as we went to BBDC for our driving lesson... WOW.... first time had de taste of driving.... starting de time of course will nervous la... but after awhile settle down le... finally had de experience to control de wheel... the feeling was juzz erm... dun noe how to say ah... u try it le u will noe... lols... after de driving lesson had finished... ard 5.30pm... called wee siang to ask him to study together... ended up we went to mos burger (our usual study place) to study... but we study till 7pm plus like tis onli... cuz he wan to reach home by 8pm to watch superband ma... on de way back... saw wh... den we pei him go singaporepool to collect money and on de way... he also got play tonite de match... saudi vs switerland... guess wat he buy... he brought saudi to win.. haha... he juzz like darkhorse to win... bth him... lols... but ok la... can say like tat... be4 de match... every team had 50%-50%... and de ball is round... u won't noe de result till de final whistle... so he still stand a chance to win... haha.. we shall c de result ltr ba... lols..

P.S: as wat i mention in my previous entry tat i will post some pics,which was taken at sentosa... after ytd fews tries to edit in de pics... i still failed to post it here... but nvm... u still can able to view it at my frenster... i had already post them over there le... =)
oh ya... another thing nid to mention... i think i won't be able to online for nowadae... due to my msn like got kanna virus again... tis time de virus is much more worse den last time tat time de... really very down to luck tis few daes... but i will try to fix tis prob asap and once i had fix it.. i will able to online le... so if got anything to find me or miss my presence... can msg me or call me or can even tag me... haha... =)

2006-06-18T15:57:00.000+08:00

1 week of holi juzz fly like tis... as wat i say last week... tis coming week goin to be my stress week liao.. it goin to be my self study dae for de whole dae... ok la.. not say whole week mon to sun... at least like tk some dae to relax or etc... but tis week is goin to be a really serious revisin liao... either home, school or outside... so whoever wan to study... can ask me out also... lols..

todae sentosa was being cancel... but quite expected la... everytime plan nicely early... den on tat dae... thing won't be smooth de.. lols... maybe is juzz my thinking ba.. anyway ytd went to sentosa for secondary sch class garthing... it really enjoyable time ytd... especially together wif those pple who did not c for such a long time since graduate from sec sch... great fun man.. =)
i will post some pic over here for u guys to hav some view of some fun we had ytd.. hehe..

"nan dao ni hai mei ting dao.... wo de xin man man shui liao"

2006-06-16T13:48:00.000+08:00

Weds... went to east coast park for our class bbq... after 1 and a half yr of saying and talking... we finally had tis bbq session.. lols... had a great fun over there... the pics will be posted once i got them... =) here must gif a special thks to Simon, who sponser EVERYTHING including foods,drinks,bbq pits.. Everything went smoothly on tat dae...

Thur... Suddenly my feeling was feeling quite uneasy... uneasy in de way tat holi had been almost one week le... tis Break period shld be doing revising... but since de holi started till now... i haven't even touch de bk yet... so todae... juzz feel like studying... lols... so went asking ard c who wan go and study... ended up.. went to mac in sembawang to study... reached there ard 5pm le.. though not say study alot.. but at least had started a little bit.. quite happy wif it le... haha... den saw raymond (not refering to our sec sch fren (raymond ang) but another raymond..) he went to mac alone to watch soccer match... oh ya.. forgt to mention tat sembawang de mac gt show live world cup... den the match start liao.. ended up watching soccer wif him... LOLs.. watch till half time.. went back hm liao...

oh no... Tis fews dae... since de holi and de world cup had started... had been slping very late and waking up quite late like no pple business like tis... i can feel tat i gettting more heaty everydae... resulting now tat i had a ulcer underneath my tongue... it juzz so painful... whenever i speak... =(

2006-06-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

After ytd night of 2 matches so called "entertaining match"... de full time result is out... as y do i say 2 match instead of 3... cuz ceazch match was boring... did not live up de atmosphere of de passion of de match... watch 1st half nearly fall aslp.. lols.. here is wat de final score of de 3 matches ytd...

australia 3-1 Japan
cezch 3-0 Usa
Italy 2-0 Ghana

2 of my prediction for ytd match was correct... haha... my gut feeling is quite zhun wor.... lols... actually can correct 3 out of 3 matches de... who ask asutralia to score 3 goal in erm.. 8 mins toward de final whistle... but to me... japan really play quite attrative football... they juzz lack of "famous" player... or not they will juzz kill de game off... they play quite well throughout de 84th min of de match... but they juzz lack of concertration at de last 8 min of de game... tis is an example of de ball is round... u won't noe who will win till de final whistle... but gd job to australia... they fight till de end... had show de nv say die spirit.. lols..

ok.. now i will say my prediction for tonite matches...
south korea vs togo...
everyone will be saying tis match surely southkorea to win... but after watching de last fews dae of every matches... i can say tat south africa team is really quite strong... so dun underestimate them... they juzz lost on their experince on world cup appearance onli... so tis won't be exception...
benjamin's prediction "south korea to win"

France vs switerland..
i think france will be too strong for de swiss to withstand... lols..
benjamin's prediction "France to win"

Brazil vs Croatia...
Do i nid to say much abt tis much... hahaha
benjamin's prediction "brazil to win"

WORLD CUP FEVER!!!!

2006-06-12T01:59:00.000+08:00

world cup fever is back after 4 yrs of awaiting... it's de event which every player dream of playing for their country... and it where legend are BORN... so who will be next legend to be born in tis world cup... any guess...?? for me... it goin to be benjamin szetoh yongjian... hahahaha... opps... -_-"... i must be dreaming... maybe nx lifetime ba... lols...

ok.. world cup is back.. and so is my 2 week break... wow... is juzz so great... can go and play hard hard le... but thinking back... i still have two ICAs needed to hand in after 2-week of holi... and not forgetting also my common test will be held juzz after my 2 week of holi... so expect me to smile as widely now..?? not really so... but no matter wat... i will still try to occupy myself full wif event for tis week to enjoy first... and den for de 2nd week... i will start all my revision for my common test... and den it goin to be stress le... =(

Tml (mon)-- go back to sch for make up lesson... and do some part of my ICAs... in de afternoon will go to hav sakae buffet wif my poly fren... location still not decided...
Wed --- having poly class bbq garthering at east coast park...
Sat-- 5A1 class garthering at sentosa...
Sun-- secondary sch fren bonding at sentosa again...
here is how my current prog for tis coming first week of break... =)

mmm.. had found sthg which are quite entertainment for my reader and for me to blog everydae from now if i could... tat sthg refering to "benjamin's prediction" for everydae matches of de world cup.... good idea rite..?? lols... ok.. so let me start from tml matches....

Australia vs Japan(9pm)
Tis will be de first match of de group stage which are counted as evenly match... it can go either way... must really depend on tat dae whose form and luck is brighter... but however... i will juzz go wif wat my heart feel....
Benjamin's prediction " Japan to win"

US vs Czech Republic (12am)
"8th in World ranking" of US vs "2nd inWorld ranking" of Czech republic... wow... its goin to be interesting... lols...
Benjamin's prediction "Czech Republic to win"

Italy vs Ghana (3am)
it can say almost a one sided game....
Benjamin's prediction " Italy to win"

All those are juzz wat i think onli... juzz my gut feeling... lols... not encouraging for pple to bet... if wan to play... play small... juzz for pleasure for de fever of it.... =)

2006-06-07T14:12:00.000+08:00

Didn’t noe whether tis time I could able to squeeze into my streak ma... actually ytd night wanna to write de… but too bad de blogger link dun noe how come juzz cannot log in… but nvm… as usual will write abt wat happen in de last few daes…

Sun.. went to play bball and soccer wif de usual grp of pple (sundae teamo)… 2 of our teammate went injure on tat dae… one of them was jiajun… he twisted his ankle while playing bball… and de another person was kt… de reason he hurt his own elbow was funny… couldn’t stop laughing… lols… opps… so bad of me… someone injure still able to laugh.. anyway if u all wan to noe how he got injured… can ask me personally… cuz it is diffi to explain in word… haha… after playing straight away went hm… and stayed at hm de whole dae as usual… tat dae while I online… I suddenly came by one of my fren blog… finally read her blog after fews months of so called keeping in de dark… haha… was kinda of happy la.. of course… cuz at least still can able to noe how she getting on now… but I guess she won’t be able to noe tat I will able to find her link and read her blog ba…
Btw one advice from me to all those who had blog… if u wan to put password onto ur blog in order not to let others to c… it will be useless… I think u guys noe wat I mean la… dun nid me to say everything in detail de… if whoever still dun noe wat I mean… can come and ask me personally.. haha..

Mon… went to sch as normal… lesson as per normal… nth really happen which I can recall back… de onli thing I can recall back was de soccer match after sch which I had write in my previous entry… my class AE vs another class in de same lec hall AD… our class lesson end at 4pm.. while their class end at 5pm… so we thought abt go to de hockey field first to kick kick de ball… so we went over there… when we reached there… de weather suddenly change (started to rain) and beside tat… de hockey field was being occupied by sec sch pples who are playing hockey… so thought of postponing de match… due to no pitch and bad weather… but ended up.. we waited them to finished their match… as their training match end at 6pm… wait and wait… wait till 6pm.. den was like wow… finally can play liao… but who knows… 6pm got de wat cca (forgt de name of de cca le).. den since we had waited for so long le… cannot like tis go off de ma… so we decided to play at de bball court near de hockey field… combined two court together… after everything had settle (cone being placed.. team being equally separate 7 aside) den everyone was ready… match started… we played who score 5 goal who win.. AD draw de first blood… score de first goal… den we score de 2nd goal.. make it 1-1 through qubeer… but tat goal still a doubt whether isit a goal anot… some say yes some say no… but ended up… de goal stand .. *fast forward to de full time result… de result was AE 5- 4 AD… our 5 goal… 1st goal score by qubeer (a doubtful goal.. did not know whether isit really a goal anot) den 2nd was an own goal by one of their player.. den de 3rd I did not noe who score.. cuz at tat time I was not ard… went for some refreshment… den de 4th and last goal was score by me… hehe… but wat I can say is tat both goal was quite lucky ah… though I had score 2 goals and we won on tat dae… but my feeling was not really tat happy after tat match… cuz from tat match… everyone noe tat BEST TEAM LOST on tat dae… tactically AD was really better den us… we did not deserve to win on tat dae… reach hm ard 8pm plus… was quite exhausted… especially my both leg…
ok.. now de prob started to arise among my team… our team now still deciding whether to still participate on tis coming sat tournament anot… but if u asked me whether wan to play tis sat anot… my ans will be… y not.. since we had already participate liao… winning or losing was not really tat impt… juzz enjoy de game and not treat it as a real tournament.. to me outcome is not tat impt… as I all along noe tat we won’t be able to win de trophy… so it’s doesn’t matter to me anyway.. haha… oh ya… rem to drop by NYP’s stadium tis coming sat if u r free on tat dae wor.… and lend us ur support… thks so much… wif u guys support… maybe in some ways will gif us some boost in our morale…?? Haha...

Tue… slp early de last night at ard 10pm plus like tis… had almost slp for abt 10 hr… lesson started at 10am… eventually todae lesson end at 5pm… but me 3pm can say self declared dismiss liao.. in another word… pon de last 2 hr of lect…. Kinda of quite guilty tis time ah… cuz common test coming soon in 3 week time… I can say tat tis module goin to die liao… dare not to imagine.. lols… went to mit kt at khatib mrt station… after tat took bus to tampines (his fren hse) to play mahjong… played till ard 11pm like tis… lost 8 buck… I feel tat I really cannot play mahjong… always will lose de… forgtton last time I won money on mahjong table was how long ago le… lols… I realized one thing tat when there will quite a no of gal gathered together and started to chat wif one another… there will be unlimited topic to chat abt… will hav no stop of topic to chat abt… sthg which is quite incredible sia… a thing which I think guys couldn’t do it.. lols… chat chat till ard 11.45am… den me and kt took cab hm after tat… cuz dun hav last bus le ma… reached hm ard 1am le…

i think I shld better stop now.. or not I will really miss de 4 dae interval le.... tc le everyone...

2006-06-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

Another 4 dae had gone... and so now, i goin to write again wat had happen in de last few daes... starting on thur instead of wed... as wed whole dae staying at hm... wake up at 3pm... lols... de feeling of waking up late is so great... so long dun hav tis kind of feeling liao since reopen of sch... another reason of waking up late is because de night be4 tat watch soccer... slp ard 4am plus...

THURs... a bad bad bad dae.... went for my Cs (Entrepreneurship) lect... told back our ICA1 proj back... consist of 20%... guess how much we gt... we onli got 12.5 out of 20... eventually our feeling was quite relieve when we saw our mark... but once de teacher say tat out of de classes which she teach... 12.5 was de lowest... den we will like kinda of laughing out loud in our heart (in term of surprise)... cuz actually our grp... all of our member was de same class beside de entreprenurship lesson... as our class was so called "de better class" la... but tis time we also quite deserve to get tis kind of result... as expected... cuz we really did not put in any effort onto it at all... but after tking tis kind of grade for ICA 1..... we told ourself tat in ICA 2 (which we are now doin on)... we r goin to strive real hard and will put real effort on it... ok... tat not abt it... after lesson... went to de com skill tuto... den teacher say out our tis term assignment plus equizz plus discussion forum (which i think consist abt ard 30%).. den she was saying everyone grade one by one goin down... almost everyone grade was like band 2 or 3... den i was kinda of confident tat i could able to get a band 3 at least.. but in de end... i got a band 4... i was really kinda of stunned lor when i heard it... how can it be... weihao was also being stunned when he also heard my grade... lols... first thing went into my mind was my gpa... oh no.. my gpa is really goin to drop again tis term... no... it won't... promise myself be4 de sem tat i will not let my gpa drop anymore... once bitten.. twice shy... as really no chance to play play again le... is time to wake up liao... as common test is coming real soon 2... business is back...

FRI... todae something amazing thing happen... due to someone act... and tat someone dun nid to say who de la... somemore gt who... our most joker... his behaviour and action will forever no limited de... it goes like tis... we will tking de lift abt to go for our night lesson on blk S level 5... and while in de lift he try forcing opening de door... and he manage to open a small gap... but tis small gap lead to a jam of de lift... de lift suddenly stopped inbetween 4 to 5 level... and on de screen which show de level of de floor... it change to "lift out of service"... den my other classmate started to panic... but it onli took less den 1 min... de lift start back to normal... it went back to level 4... and once de door open... everyone went out... and tk de stair instead to level 5... lols... joker of tat dae goes to Zhou Zan Hong... with him ard... there will surely always be sthg happen ard us... lols...

SAt (todae)... did not study for todae... instead went to weesiang hse in de afternoon to watch our production movie... everyone who was being involved were all over there... except seowsuan... cuz she working todae ma... so cannot make it... mmm... de production can say a success ah... quite comedy and entertaining... after tat went town wif pd kt dennis and ws... took some pic.. but i lazy to load into my blog.. if u wan to c... can visit my frenster... i think i will load over there...

tml sundae teamo dae again... nided to wake up early... think tml they will be playing soccer ba... if they are playing soccer tml... den i will be playing soccer for 3 dae for tis coming week liao... juzz loving it... =) anyway tis coming Mondae after sch... there will be a frenly soccer match between class AD and AE (which are us)... venue: hockey field... time: 6pm... will updated de result of tis match again on my nx entry... =)

everything was fine de min ago.. but now started to think things again due to sthg... did'nt wan to mention it anyway... ok.. tat all folk.. back again in 4 daes time...

2006-05-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

wow... my previous entry juzz manage to squeeze into my 4 dae streak... tat mean i still in de run... hehe... tat also mean i will continue my consistency so call 4 dae entry.. =)

ok.. tis is de time must recall wat happened to my life de last 4 daes... for someone like me who SOMETIME gt short term-memory... tis is de time goin to lose million of my brain cell juzz to recall back... lols...

not really much thing happenend anyway... bad and gd things will always happen throughout de dae de... tat wat make life is all about... ups and downs... got some gd and bad news to share out.... let say abt bad news first... todae mos got underage party.... eventually wanna to go... but due to some particular reason... ended up goin to miss it again... realised tat clubbing and me dun hav fate... something will surely cropped up at de last min... maybe it is blessing in disguise ba... haha...

now shall say abt de gd news... gd news was we ytd had finally register de 7 aside soccer tournment... it will be held on 10 June... at NYP... de venue i not so sure... i think shld be at our sch stadium ba... so qiao... 10 of June was de start of Fifa World Cup sia... btw must go and gif us your support leh... oh ya.. forgt to name who was in de same team as me... our team consist of me, Simon, Qabeer, Kun, Andrew, Xiaojian and lastly farouk... from de list... though our team look quite strong... wif some quality in it... such as Qabeer (singapore under-21).. simon (ex-s-league Sembawang Ranger) but i still dun believe we could be able to win de trophy... haha... cuz nv always underestimate ur opponents...

Oh... btw recommend u guys to watch X-man... it was a very nice movie... throughout de 2-hr show i had been so sobber... nv feel of sleeping while watching it at all...

Regarding last sat... a super unusual thing happen... after playing billard at yck wif kt... we went to mit pd after tat... while waiting for him... went to hav dinner... ate one plate of rice wif pork and salted vegetable... 1 chicken and double cheese burger each... and another plate of char kuay tiao... haha... cannot imagine tat i can become so big eater... eat till to my fill... can feel tat my stomache become so bloated.. lols.. as a result... did not eat anything till de nx dae' s dinner... oh no... having inbalanced meal these fews dae... is juzz bad for health...

Word are always easier to say den to be done... find tis sentence make sense and quite true ah..... "there is no miracle in tis world... miracle is just a saying from those hopeless de pple onli.. miracle is juzz a way to let those hopeless da pple find reason to live on onli... but in actual fact... these is no miracle de... "

how i wish there's a cold cold honeydew milk tea right now... so craving for it now...

2006-05-27T13:40:00.000+08:00

OMG... my 4 dae streak had gone le... ytd i actually can make it on time to make an entry... but somehow... when i reach home... my com de internet connection dun noe wat happen... cannnot use ytd... WTH... den try finding out where de prob lie on... in de end... juzz could'nt found it... den fed-up switch off my com lor... so tat goes my 4 dae streak... so todae pu hui qu ytd de entry...

tis week really had happen alot of things... bad and good also hav... but somehow bad will always more den good thing... in some way tis week juzz make my heart very fan... juzz todae... juzz woke up... and den my sis and my bro for some stupid thing quarrel and fight (not violence.. but some verbal-communcation fight).. make de whole hse damn noisy la... had make todae a bad start of de dae le...

oh ya... before i say abt wat had happen de last fews dae... found out tat my tis blog "shou shi li" had increased... lols... but if i let me choose... i prefer to not letting so many pple noe and keep it low profile.. so now must be careful of wat i write le... haha..

TUEs.. lesson end at 5pm... but tis time after sch did not went to grassroot to play pool.. cuz ee siong went to mit lynda after sch (did i spell wrongly ma tis time... haha..) and shenrong went for his cca... so left me and kun... den kun eventually wan to play pool (can c from his face)... so i went to ask kaitai wan to come grassroot to play anot... den he say he mitting his galfren ma.. so we decided not to play le... and went back striaght home.. but when we abt to reach khatib mrt... he called me ask me wan go to cck play anot as his galfren dun mind playing also... thinking de nx dae no sch and heard from him say tat his galfren was quite gd in pool... so ended up... onli me went to mit up wif him... as kun didn't want to go... really quite impress by her pool... as wat he say to me... she live up to her reputation.. lols...
now how i wish there will be a dae whereas we could able to play a mixed double... u wif ur galfren... and me wif her (i think mostly of u will able to noe who ah... dun nid to say out de.. hehe..) though i noe tis dae will be quite slim... but i still gt tat hope tat it will happen one dae de...

WEDs.. no sch.. but gt "lesson" todae... wake up at 7.45am... went to bukit batok for tat one hour plus lesson.. not de lesson in sch... but lesson in bbdc... cuz i still gt one more final theory lesson hav not attend yet ma... so faster finished up didn't wan to delay anymore.. but i went to do my practise paper on my final theory be4 attending de 1 hr plus boring lesson.. i done 2 booklet for 3 try... 2 try on first booklet and 1 try on de 2nd booklet... 3 tries all i fail... 58% 75% 88% respectively...

FRI... lesson de whole dae... but todae lesson start at 12pm instead of 10am... as de 10-11am de lesson being move to thur... 1st lesson went to de ruan zhilong lab lesson... during his lesson... found out one thing which he told us... everyone in our class like kinda of stunned when he told us tat todae was "eat-wif-family-dae".. lols... first time heard of tis occasion... haha.. but i think is true ah.. cuz he told us tat he heard from de radio... it say every teacher and student will be dismiss at 5pm... but somehow todae did not eat wif my family... as lesson still continue on... sch ended at 9.30pm... oh ya... forgt to mention one thing... we are planning to join de 7-aside soccer tournement organised by our sch... but still not yet register... but if mon we able to c the booth again... we will be goin to register le... as we had form a team liao... haha

tis week can feel tat i juzz like a zombi without feeling now... did not noe wat i really doin... and wat i really wan... failure always will make pple somehow treasure things more...

2006-05-23T01:15:00.000+08:00

due to continue my streak of 4 dae per entry... and in order not to break tis trend... i nid to blog todae... even though i not feeling quite tired and dun feel like blogging... oh ya... last weekend i did not went to the camp due to my packed lesson schedule in sch... plus tis week coming tues... and tat is tml... i having math test... consisit of 5%.. if i had gone to the camp... i won't have the time to study for it le... somehow something nid to sacrifice de... so in de end i had sacrifice not to go to my camp and to study for de test.... so better let me tk a gd grade for tis test... haha... so wish me gd luck~... :)

so on sat went to study wif de usual pple (ws, jl, ys,kt,jh and pd) at mos... surprising there very little pple over there... maybe because sec sch currently no exam now ba... tat y so little pple... though tat dae... i really went there for my "serious" revisation on my math... but somehow juzz could'nt able to concentrate... at tat time simple basic equation i also cannot get it... was kinda of fed-up at myself... i juzz couldn't tk any stress.. or can say... i hate being under stress or pressure... after studying... went to boon lay to hav dinner... eat de lay lay de duck noodle... it taste not bad... den after our meal... we went to de "scoop" to hav our ice-cream time... it juzz taste delicious...

On sun... sundae teamo training again... but tis time was different from last time... we having a match between our own team-mate... overall a gd match... but me had sustain a hand injury during de match... my middle finger was swollon... compare my middle finger of both hand now was kinda of funny... cuz one is bigger den another by double... haha...

todae... backed to sch... week 6 le... stress getting heavier wif lots of assignment and proj to hand up by tis week... lesson from 8am-4pm todae... was quite tired todae as ytd slept at 2am plus... i juzz feel tat i dun feel like being myself todae... as during our break... from 10am-12pm.. after our meal... went to lib to study... actually wanna to revis for tml math test.. but found out tat my eda tool still hav not finish yet... so ended up finished up it as de nx lesson is eda tool lab ma... so no choice... ended up did not revise my math... den after my last lesson(math lec) dismissed... actually wanna to go hm to slp de... but weihao asked us wan go lib to revise math a while anot... den in de alot of pple went... so me follow de majority... another purpose is because if dun noe know how to do... still gt math pro (weihao and xiaojian) over there... can ask them for help ma... =)... bu zhi bu jue... we stay at lib till 6pm... cannot imgaine tat.. but wif stress also gd la... at least can make me not to think alots of things...

struck in de middle right now... shld i continue to go on wif de thing is now or go back ne???

2006-05-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

here come my weekly entry again... i will try to at least blog once a week... unless there is something interesting or i bored.. i will try to blog more... will tis entry be de one of tis week?? haha... y do i say tat... cuz there will be a so called "camp" organised for our nypal starting from tml till sun... a 3 dae 2 night camp.. wan asked to go there to help out... den if go and help out... goin to be so called "ogl" sia.. lols... oh no.. tis name cannot suit me.. cuz i'm tat kind of person whom i think without any leadership... haha... but now quite mao dun whether wanna to go anot leh... wanna to go... but tml shedule quite packed... it will be very rush for me if i will to go... cuz my lesson tml end at 9pm... so still thinking abt it...

ok.. todae a slack dae in sch... cuz every thur though a long hr from 9am-6pm... but it also de most slack dae in de week... den todae i was feeling quite tired because ytd night been watching soccer.. barcelona vs arsenal... champion league final... quite interesting de game.. de result is again had been expected... barcelona won... but gd performance by arsenal too... at least they had put in their hard work... thought tis match i am neutral ... not really supporting who to win... but it a great match to watch been played by both great team....

den todae lesson 9am-1oam is de eda tool lect.. actually wanna to pon tis lesson... but ended up did not pon... as tis module consisit of 5% of attendent.. so juzz forc myself up for the sake of tat 5%... haha.. but go there like nv go like tis... cuz always his lect did not really pay attention... lols... as there no exam in tis moduale ma... so always either tok tok or slp in de lec hall during his lect.. after tat.. 10am-12pm is de entreprenuership... another proj which no exam... onli proj based moduale... but todae teacher ended early... 11am finished wat she wanted to teach le.. den went to FJ and eat... as usual tis hr always alots of pple... so in de end... went to mac lor... haha... guess who we saw... saw ee siong's fren (a gal whom he currently like now) over there... first time saw her in real person... but hor... i still think she look better in de pic... opps... if ee siong to read my tis entry... he goin to kill me.. lols... after tat went to play pool at grassroots... but ended up onli me,ee siong,shen rong,xiaojian and kun play... oh no... tis 3 conservative dae had been playing pool... haha... but todae play for less den an hr onli ah cuz we having com skill tuto at 2pm ma... but after playing with them for tis fews dae... can c tat they are improving dae by dae... especially shen rong and ee siong... hav improve quite alot.... haha...

saw u quite a number of time in sch todae... tis isit called fate ma?? haha... happy to c u again... =)

2006-05-14T15:49:00.000+08:00

todae another last dae of de weekend..... oh ya.. and todae is mother dae... wish every mother a happy mother dae (especially to my mom..) thks for all de yr of guidence and care she had given me... thks god for gifing me a gd mother for me... hope tat she will stay happy and healthy forever... thks mom... =)

ltr goin to hav dinner together wif my family to celebrate mother dae... so todae must one dae "act" gd boy stay at hm... hahaha... therefor i able to write tis entry now... cuz me had nth to do ma... so nth to write abt todae... den shall say abt wat happened ytd lor... ytd afternoon went to my grandparent hse to hav buffect to celebrate my grandma bdae... first time catering buffect inside a hse... cool... my cousin drove his car to bring me there (together wif his gf and his younger sis.. who is elder den me also...) during de journey there a convestation....

my cousin gf say "wow... how come always c him.. he(who is refering to me la) will carrying a bk along wif him de... so hardworking"

den i reply "erm... isit... " giving her a werid face... haha.. cuz dun noe wat to reply ma but in my heart... omg... gt someone say i hardworking sia... hahaha... if whoever noe my well listen to it... will feel like puking rite.. haha... i also agree to it.. cuz i dun believe tat i tat hardworking kind...
den reach my grandparent hse... juzz eat eat eat... eat till 4pm plus like tis... den went mit wee siang they all at mos to study (our usual study dae)... actually wanna to study de eg2098 de... cuz if i not wrong tis coming week gt class test.. consist of 10%... tat alot of weightage man... but ended up... went there juzz study onli one formula... den we went to jurong east to hav our dinner... eat fishball noodle recommended by wee siang... taste not so bad especially de fishball... after tat went to IMM to walk walk... sudennly they suggested to go to ah bang there to hav supper... den without hesitating we went there... haha... cuz there also can watch soccer ma... FA cup final leh... liverpool vs west ham... first thought it will be a one sided game... but ended up.. west ham gav a very hard fight... nearer won till de last few min of de game... liverpool score to equalise... de match ended 3-3... den went on to penatly... as expected... liverpool won... horray... cheer*... after de match went hm striaght hm le...

oh no.. relisead tat i still hav alot of proj still hav not done yet... and deadline is coming real soon... actually wanna to do todae... but dun hav de feel to do it... haha... tat an excuss.. is juz tat i lazy...

-shi jie wei yi de ni- will tat person behind me be u ma..?? as wat i say to u tat hopefully it is... and determination cannot last long de... and wat i say i mean it.... =)

sign off (5.25pm... 14.5.2006... sun)

2006-05-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

shall write abt wat happen todae... two word for todae... and tat is "boring boring"... as how come i will blog todae cuz i wanna to point out 2 thing... one is cuz went back to sch... for make up lesson which eventually on tis coming fri night lesson de... as tis coming fri is a public holi ma... haha... find it so werid to go back to sch on wed... maybe not use to it ba... as every wed i did not nid to go back to sch de... den todae de make up lesson actually is from 3pm-6pm... but reach sch at ard 1pm and mit up weihao ee siong xianjian and boonhwa to do our com skill proj at de lib....

ok... den de 2nd point which i wan to point of was wat weihao say to me... for me.. i found wat he had say was quite funny la... haha... as it goes like tis...
while we were walking from de lib to fj de time...
he suddenly say "benjamin... u like tat song leh.." (as we will looking at de direction of de stage which located at de auditorium.. and from where we standing there is a guy was singing while playing his guiter...)
den i gav him a blur face and ask him wat song is it... he told me is kiss goodbye... den de funniest part is when i told him "wah... so far u also can able to listen wat he was singing sia"... after tat he told me "can listen a little bit la from de beat... but his singing not nice"... lols... me suddenly sian diao liao after he like tis say... haha... but too bad... me unable to listen de whole song which tat guy sing...

tat all for todae... endure last dae for tml and after tat it goin to be "so call" long weekend le... =)

sign out (10.45pm.. 10/5/2006... wed)

2006-05-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

whoo... it weekend again... tis week can say pass quite fast ah... cuz study for 3 dae onli ma... haha.. todae went to smb de mac study wif jl,pd,jh,ys and ws... de place is so crowded... no place to seat at first... but lucky jl went there early to "chop" place... lols.. study for quite a long hr... been revising my stupid A-math... cuz tis coming tues gt class test as i gt mention in my previous entry... argghh... hate tis stress... but no choice still nid to study... omg... i think i goin to fall sick soon man... cuz todae in mac i been sitting beside pinda (tis sick boy who fall sick quite seriously juzz ytd... and still not feeling quite well todae)... plus todae i mistk his drink as my drink... and i drank his... omg... i can feel my body getting weaker now... maybe is i xin li zhou yong le ah... haha... me also hope so ba... lols... and i dun like to fall sick... de feeling is juzz terrible... anyway pinda... wish u hav a fast recovering....

oh ya... after study... we went to watch M.I 3 at sun plaza... a nice show overall... worth to watch it... after tat went striaght hm... cuz me wanna to watch poll result... de result was wat i had expected... haha... shall turn in early tonite...
it goin to be a boring boring weekend for me tis week... :(

mmm.. wat shall i say leh.... tis morning when i woke up i suddenly think of u....

sign off (1.20am... 7/5/2006... sun)

2006-05-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

backed to sch after a long~ weekend... quite enjoy over de weekend... especially ytd... went to somewhere different tis time round... enjoy it~... but cannot always go there ah... haha.. oh shit... i can feel tat i getting slacker and slacker le... still rem yr 1... i will like one of de weekend do some revision... but now... always feel like playing and dun feel like studying liao... how...?? argghh... though i nowadae become more attentive in class and tis sem de lecturer is much better den last sem... but nth had gone into my brain... one ear in one ear out... juzz too chim to unstd.... especially my A-math... really goin to gone case if i dun start to buck up now...

todae early lesson... 8am start lesson le... first two period was my so called semseter proj ah... die liao ah... can c tat tis proj is very complicated... will tk some time to able to finish it... den after tat... was my math tuto... my tis lecturer is super opposite from my last sem my math lecturer.. as y do i say tat leh... cuz last sem my math lecturer... every 1 hr lesson.. he onli use 30 min... den every 2hr lesson... he use less den one hr to teach... and his tuto and assignment do not nid to do at all.. and can get de 10% liao... can u imagine le ma now my tis lecturer... totally opposite... he will use up every min of his lesson... as for todae...when he teach... no one dare to talk slp etc in his tuto.... poor shen rong... he become our victim in our tuto lesson todae... kanna say until quite jialet by our math teacher... he is juzz too serious in his teaching... and his mathod of teaching is juzz too stress for us... oh ya... nx week still gt his class test... omg... must start to revise my math le... or not i sure will flunk for his paper nx week.. haha.. after his lesson... we had 2 hr of break... quite dun like our break time... always will be very crowded de either south canteen or fj... but we end up ate in fj... we sat at staff corner sia... lols... become so main of attraction.. haha... but gt some staff went forwad to ask us... but heck care... we juzz continue to eat... lols... we finished our meal for like 10 min like tis... den we went to grassroot for pool session again... but dun so like playing pool in grassroot... de place is very small.. but todae de table beside us... gt one person quite gd sia... win quite alot of matches... quite impress by me... actaully had a chance to play wif him... but ended up did'nt... cuz nid to go back to sch for our nx lesson... wat a wasted.. lols...

todae sch ended at 4.30pm.... brought weihao and zanhong to yishun for haircut... cuz last time already planned todae bring them go de... actually onli 3 of us going de... den end up.. ee siong, kun and shanxuan came along... lols... cuz all of them staying in yishun ma... den they juzz join in de fun lor... acc us go... auntie shop become so crowd tat time... haha... went hm straight away after tat... tml wed again.. tat mean no sch tml... also no prog... so tat also mean i goin to rot myself at hm tml liao...

tis song will let me think of u....

sign off (12.30am... 3/5/2006... wed)

2006-04-29T02:05:00.000+08:00

todae another long long dae in sch.... time dun noe y somehow pass very slow whenever it is on fri... haha... todae juzz dun hav de mood of studying... whenever i think of de time i goin to dismiss.. make me so sian and boring la... but one thing which i wan to say is tat... though todae no mood and feeling quite tired in sch... but i did not fall aslp in every lesson todae... must gif a big "clap" for myself... lols... todae juzz had a hr of break... at first we went to FJ but there too many pple liao... so dun noe who (if i not wrong... shld be ee siong or zhan hong) suggested go to north canteen to eat... omg... de feeling over there is so werid... dun hav any "home" feeling over there at all... juzz like eating at a stranger land like tis... lols... after eating... while walking back to block s... saw some of familier faces including her... dun wan to say much in detail... i finding night lesson was quite fun... a new and fresh experience... but it is quite tiring afterall... haha..

as ususal... went back hm a while... den went to hav supper wif my bros... a usual gathering... but tis time quite early reached hm... tk cab wif kt and pd... cuz onli 3 of us do not stay in smb ma.... a very bad journey back hm juzz now... when i broaded de cab... i can smell unpleseant smell in de cab... is quite stinking la... suffocating in de cab sia me during tat 15 min journey... goin to faint inside... and plus his bad driving... it make me feel even worse... when i alighted... i can feel tat i trying to breathe in as much air as possible... and i can imgine how impt to hav fresh air ard us... lols... and it is goin to be my worst encounted taking a cab...

oh ya... be4 went hm... we went up to wee siang hse to tk our jesery back... our team 2nd jesery and also my 2nd owned jesery... quite like de new jesery... cuz it look quite style-lo... look a little bit alike from brazil jesery nia.. though our brand is so much lousier den their brand la... haha... but too bad... de jesery no is not my fav no 10... sadness... but nvm ah... watever no it is... is still as a team... :)

wat shld i say... nth much i can really say... juzz let nature tk it course... and hope time really can prove everything ba... =)

sign off (2.10am... 29/4/2006.... sat)

2006-04-27T20:12:00.000+08:00

todae a long dae in sch... but quite surprising i do not feel tired at all... haha... as a result... did not fall aslp in any tuto and lec lesson todae... must gif myself a "clap" =D... but tonite i think i goin to turn in quite early... cuz tml lesson is goin to be from 10am to 9.30pm... really nid tat energy for tml to endure de whole dae... juzz now i was so bored tat i went scroll ard n read some of my frens blog... i came across a blog which make me feel quite impressed by his lifestyle.... however tat person is my fren de fren... and so happen also is my lecture hall classmate... de whole is so qiao... say small not small.. say big not big... is juzz so amazing man... haha... as wat i say juzz now... his lifestyle had somehow impressed me... after reading some of his entry... he had make me changed a big impression on him... wat make me impressed of him is he gt tat passion on thing which he wanna to do on... and he make me realise tat it is tis passion which i had been lacking now.... beside tis... there is a fews more which make me unexpected of him... in another word... "really cannot judge a bk by its cover"...

maybe tis way shld be better ba...as i also will be satisfield enough le to maintain how it is now... :)

2006-04-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

ok... alot of thing really happened these fews dae... but watever it is... i do not wan to say anything abt it... todae woke up at 12pm for de 1pm lesson... pon math tuto 10am-11am todae... but went for his lec... found out tat my math teacher cannot ren de... haha... cuz he is tat kind who is very serious abt his work... anyway told myself... i goin to real start my study now... study is goin to be my top priority starting from now onward.... hopefully tat i can do it...

Happy bdae to u... hope u will enjoy tis special dae todae... after thinking these fews dae.... real serious thinking... i think we be fren now will be better... and i think u also will think de same 2 ba... but i wan to say... is tat i really had no regret saying to u all tat thing on last sat night(22th april) through msg... but for now... wat i wan now will be a fren wif u again... lastly zhu ni shen ri kuai le... :)

sign off (10.30pm... 25/4/2006... tues)..

A mixed feeling dae....

2006-04-23T03:38:00.000+08:00

finally weekend had arrived.... after my first week of sch reopen.... wat i say say abt is.... super super tired after every lesson lor.... ok.. i shall write my sch schedule... mon 8am-4pm... tues 8am-5pm... wed off... thur 9-6pm.... fri 10am-9.30pm... even though every wed off... my other 4 daes lesson is super super long... really feel exhausted after every dae of lesson.... especially my night lesson happen to be on fri... 1st week i already feel so tired liao... how i imgaine de nx 16 week i goin to endure my tis timetable... i so wanted to change my tis timetable man... but can i...?? but i think it is impossible ar....

actually night lesson is quite fun... but really tiring when reach hm... but after de lesson... i still went out to mit my bros for our usual garthering(went for prata at smb for supper).... and de most unexpected thing is after supper... we (me kaitai pinda and jianlong) went to mac to sit and chat.... bu zi bu jue... we chat till de nx morning sia... lols... maybe sthg wrong wif us... haha... still can chat till so much... den me todae 6am like tis reach hm.... after tat me ard 2pm plus like tis went back to smb to do our usual sat study at mac... omg mac again... haha.. but todae i did not really study at all... bring my bk for show onli... cuz nth really nid to study.... den after tat... we went to amk for pool seesion.... wow... dun noe how long did not play over there liao lor... still rem always will go there play pool de.... and my form n shooting instinct over there had all lost.... todae had some misuderstand wif my bros during pool session... and if whoever noe me well... whenever i play pool... and if i lost... i will not fare up... or get irrigated... as i noe tat it onli juzz a game... but tis time i lost my cool is because gt reason and not because i lost... i do not wan to say out wat de reason is... as i do not wan to expand tis misunderstand any bigger... cuz if i say out some will disargree and den cause it become bigger and therefore more misunderstand... and wat wee siang say in his blog is quite true la... cuz i also think tat no one is really dun hav any shortcoming.... but no matter wat... i had learn to cherish everything and everyone ard me... and i will...

juzz finished watching chelsea vs liverpool... fa cup semi final.... very happy tat my liverpool had won... yea.. final result liverpool 2- chelsea 1... haha... tis time worth watching tis match.... =D

er.... but todae gt sthg which make me feel quite disappointed ar... i did sthg or can say... i had say sthg which i cannot imagine tat i will say... but sometime say out wat u really feel... ur heart will feel more reliefing (become lighter)... and i did it... at least i had say wat i wanna to say... though da outcome is not really wat i expected... maybe it must tk time... but i believe tat time will help us to change thing become better ba... and a chance for me to prove to u wat i say todae is real...

my head is spinning quite badly now... did not really had a gd rest tis fews dae... tml still nid to wake up in de morning for our sundae teamo training.... turning in....

sign off (4am... 23/4/2006.... sun)

A interesting dae....

2006-04-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

tis is my 2nd time to write todae... juzz dun noe how to juzz now when i click publish post... my entry all lost... tat y i now write another entry.... arghh... forgt wat i write in de previous entry liao... must start write over again.... sch had begun liao... todae is de 3rd dae of sch... every wed i do not nid to go back to sch due to no lesson on tat dae everyweek... but todae different... went back to sch... cuz went back to help out for de clubclaw... alot of thing happened todae during de clubclaw... but i wan to say one thing to tat stupid idoit dennis.... he todae suddenly went up to de stage to play piano suddenly... at first be4 he play... i asked him whether if i go up to de stage to play de piano... de person in charge will allowed anot... cuz i still rem tat i still owe u(refering to her) a song... and i last time gt told her tat one dae i will play it for her on de stage... den dennis told me tat can allowed... cuz he noe de stage manager ma... den suddenly after a while he suddenly went up to de stage to play de piano... he play yue ding and tong hua remix.... idiot him... play my song on de stage... tat person playing shld be me lor... actually de person to blame is myself... cuz if i had learn de whole song of tong hua... tat person up there is me le... a very gd chance for me to go up there to play... wasted a great chance... really hate myself for not learning de whole song yet... argghhh... as wat i promise u (refering to her) i will one dae do it... but hope tat... tat dae when i up on de stage... hope u will be there 2... den beside dennis play tonghua on piano... gt another guy play tonghua on guitar... walau leh... my heart like dun noe how to desrcibe la... but whenever i listen to tis song... i will like suddenly think of u... and de past...

den todae saw alot of shou ren lor... first time in sch can c so many of them.... but me cannot name them here ah... cuz juzz too many for me to name le... haha... but todae de person i wanna to c... finally let me c her le... but onli when de clubclaw is goin to end de time.... feel stunned and my mind totally blanked out when saw her... tat time i pull up my courage went up to call her... but we onli chat for a while.... :(... but most imptly is tat from wat i can c tat now she seem like living quite fine and happy... me also feel happy to c tat... as there a sentence "sometime when u like someone... u do not nid to yong you ta... kan ta kai xin... ni kai xin le.." tat is wat i can do now.... c u happy... i also will feel happy le... =)

sign out (11.50pm... wed... 19/4/2006)

Bad luck...

2006-04-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

ARgghhh... a brand new week... and de last week be4 sch reopen... already make me feel quite irritated... these two dae (todae and ytd)... lot of unlucky thing happened... started from ytd... be4 tis entry... i had mention tat ytd went to film de dennis production... can say not really very smooth de process... end up quite late den finished wat shld film on tat dae... ok nvm... after filming... kaitai and jiun heer acc me went to find my bag again.. but tis time be4 i go.. i got do some homework on where got de outlet in singapore... and onli two destination which i think will able to find it.. and it were orchard and marine square... so not headless go and find tis time round... we went to marine square first... when i walk in on de display shelf... i finally saw de design i wan... was really very happy tat time... cuz finally can find it... but leh... it not de colour i wan... so i went to ask de person in charge whether there is another colour avaiable anot... waiting for his reply a while... he told me there is'nt anymore... left onli tis colour... but worse of all... he told me tat in singapore... there isn't any more avaiable liao... onli hav tis colour... den at tat moment i was like disheartened liao... my hope juzz shattered... den i went to try on tat colour whether is suit anot... but tat colour is juzz too bright and de colour more suitable for gal lor... den end up went to orchard for my last gliamer of hope left... but be4 i went there... my feeling is like i think there will not hav... ended up my feeling was sure zhun lor... as wat i expected... haizzz... how come when i was full of determination to do sthg or watever de time... de outcome is always negative.... juzz make me feel demoralise lor....

ok.. den todae... went to driving centre for my basic thoery test in de early afternoon wif kaitai pinda and dennis.... but dennis todae is tking his practical test... do not wan to say much in detail... all of us pass our test todae... yea... but i todae able to pass is not not related to any luck... i able to pass it... cuz almost all de ques i had done in de practise be4... so it is easy... so cannot say i hav luck ah..... as cuz i noe me nowade really do not hav any luck... afternoon went to join weihao jianlong and weesiang for dota AGAIN... de same old thing (no offend by saying tis)... not say not gd la... but sometime always do de same thing can get bored de... (really no offend)... but i think u guys will also agree rite.. haha... den in de night went to eat supper (prata) again... but actually todae prata is specially arange for my mei (pq).. cuz she feeling unhappy... so we went there like sit now cheer her up like tis lor... but when reach there de time... she loook alrite le... so we juzz sat there chat and eat for a while onli... den juzz now online... shenrong told me abt our new timetable... wth lor... my timetable juzz one word to describe... and tat is juzz "sux"... i not wan to say it out ah... it really really damn sian and boring... my fri ended sch at 930... it is pm and not am lor... wakao leh... fri leh end at 930pm... i did not expected it de lor... i cannot imgine whose timetable will be worse den mine... but for my new timtable... wed there gt one dae off... wat for man... if let me choose... i perfer not to hav tat wed off and separate de schedule into two dae equally... or not fri off and wed end late... arghhh.... i really nth to say liao ah... juzz really make me no mood now...

oh ya... todae be4 went for supper... went to weesiang hse... den over there... learn sthg new... learn how to play guitar... haha... able to play some part of "right here waiting"... thks jianlong for teaching... but dun noe y... if let me choose piano and guitar... i perfer piano... and i juzz dun like guitar... not say really dun like la... juzz feel tat guitar and myself de distance is very far... example if like someone play piano and play quite well... i will like look highly on them and feel very peifu... but if someone to play guitar and no matter how well he play... feel they are like condemned and i will like feel nth special at all.... haha... how come i suddenly become so agatiated like tis...lols.. but anyway really no offend by saying tis.. (as it juzz by my view onli)...

there will be no story for todae... no time to write and think of it for de time being... cuz there alot of others things which make me piss off and therefor dun feel like writting my story todae... will write de other time...

sign off... (2.10am... 12/4/2006... wed..)

2006-04-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

starting to make an enrty for todae... alot of thing to say... but dun noe whether i can rem wat i wan to say anot first... haha... todae wake up at 7am lor... cuz todae my father side they all go shao mu ma... so long nv so early wake up liao... but think it goin to be soon i almost everydae will wake up tis hr when sch reopen.... ok.. shall continue... den went to eat breakfast at de chong pang there... so long nv early morning went there eat wif my parent.. since i young.. i also went there to eat de.. after tat went to my ye ye hse... all my relative had reached... left our family... but quite surprise when i reach there is... quite alot of pple (cousin) did not went shao mu todae... den de atmosphere like quiet quiet de... make it more boring de whole dae lor... after all de shao mu thing... went back to my ye ye hse.. every yr is de same routine de... den at my ye ye hse... play wif my sis nad bro bingo... so bo liao lor over there... cannot imagine tat i play wif them bingo.. haha.. den after tat watch a while campus superstar over there wif my family and my uncle... den say alot abt campus superstar thingy... goin to miss campus superstar... miss teresa and clara... teresa de voice when she sing is really very nice... but todae went back hm ard 2pm plus... super early lor... cuz every time go my yeye hse.. always will at night go hm de... den in de evening went to my auntie hse... cuz she say she prepare steamboat.. ask us to go over to eat... long time also nv eat steamboat liao... also very long nv hav steamboat wif my bros le... dun noe de last time is when... in de night actually wanna go out to ah ban (prata there) to watch soccer wif my bros (wee siang pinda etc) de usual ppple... cuz tonite can say quite a big match... man u vs arsenal... though both team i dun support... but tis type of match cannot miss de... but in de end.. did not went.. cuz quite late liao ma... also lazy to go out... tat all for wat had happen todae in brief detail onli... oh ya... tml goin to filiming liao... my fren (dennis) production... haha... kinda of excited ba... cuz nv been really a actor in a particualr show...

back to my story... whenever i wanna to start to write abt it de time... me suddenly dun noe wat to write liao... even though i had alot of thing to write.... sometime me hate to blogging... cuz whenever i blog is when i not happy or sad or watever which is not gd... den tat time den i feel like bloggin.. cuz i feel tat like tis i can able to let off alot of my feeling into it... but sometime i will not really write everything in my blog de... will juzz say half of it... including wat i really really feel... having a mixed feeling now... really dun noe wat i really thinking and really wan... tis two dae... starting to chat wif u again le... even though is onli on msn... i shld be feeling very happy de...but dun noe how come my feeling very strange leh... maybe was thinking whether isit a gd thing or a bad thing to chat wif u again... cuz i noe myself very well tat ur every word u say can either make me happy or sad... but no matter wat... i shld not ask for any more... must satisfeld wif wat u gt now... but at least now i able to noe how u getting on now... but do u noe tat todae u copy paste ur entry to me... and i had asked u fews ques on some particular thing... and from wat my reply.. u can c tat i seem normal... but actually i feel quite jealous and sad in myself when asking u these ques... now wat i can do is juzz tk step by a step wif lesser expectation now (and not thinking too much)...
me still wondering whether u will to read my blog...??

sign off (10th april 2006... 2.33am.. mon)

2006-04-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

ok... is time to blog again... really quite long did not blog liao... last few dae feeling like blogging... but wheneve i come to tis page... i suddenly do not know wat to write abt and de feel is not there... den ended up did not blog... these few dae juzz did not feel like being myself... feeling quite moody and sianzation these few dae... lot of thing to fret at in my mind... 1st of all is because these fews dae... i hav been searaching for my bag which i wanna to buy... search almost every part of de place which think will sell de... but still cannot find it... and 1 and a half more week sch reopen liao... no matter wat i will go and find it be4 sch reopen de... i believe tat if i had de determination... i will able to find it de... say until sch reopen... me still do not hav de mentally prepared for sch reopen yet... cuz i noe tat when sch reopen... it goin to be very very stress daes again... wondering whether sch reopen or holi will be better... each hav their own gd and bad ba... to me... sch reopen will be stress but wif stress... it will make me not to think too much.. for holi... it is gd... cuz do not nid to stress but de bad point is tat i will start to think alot when i feel boring... so conculsion is tat nth is prefect in this world...

feel tat my luck these fews dae are not really very gd... wat i wan and wan it to happen... it did not... one of de example is... last fews dae... i been finding some song to put into my blog... but leh... 3 song which i intended to put in de... all of them also cannot find... arghhh..... so no choice... will remain this song for de time being... wait till i able to find tat song... though i cannot put de song into my blog... wanna to recommend to u guys... tis song... de title is "yi nian qian" by hu yanbing... strongly recommended by me... tis song de lyric is very very de meaningful lor... but too bad... cannot find de song to put into my blog... but nvm ah... if u all wan to listen... can come and find me.. i can send to u personally through msn or etc... haha...

if u all who all along will read my blog... will know tat de last few posts i did not write anything abt my story liao... cuz i noe tat sometime.. there will be some things which will be impossible de... wat for fret at things which is impossible... but if someone is to ask me now whether i had forgt and able to let it go... i can straight away tell u de ans is still "No"... cuz in my heart i noe tat if i say yes... i will be bluffling myself.. as now if i say yes... if whenever i saw u or chat wif u etc.. my feeling will be like... erm.. can say like sweet and sour again ba.. but last time pinda told me one thing... which i think is quite true... i also believe tat somehow one dae i will be able to let go de... e most unbearable thing is... u must let go something even though u can't bear to let it...

left 10 more dae to sch reopen... these 10 daes will it be a boring dae(which i everydae during these holi been doing) or a happening dae(which will be sthg which i did not do be4 or i really wan to do)..???

sign off (11.35pm.. 6/4/2006... thur)

2006-03-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

updated on my evaluation todae.... even though my evaluation paper is 1pm todae... went to driving centre at 12pm.. cuz acc pinda ma... as his is 12pm... todae 3 of us... me kt and pd went to de exam hall de level thrice sia... haha... cuz first time is acc pinda... den after tat de 2nd time is me and kt turn to take ma.... actually tk de paper no pressure at alll and full of confidence can pass de... den alas... in de end fail... sianization sia... so went to book de another time slot of de paper... so therefor went there de 3th time... haha... but is my 2nd time to tk de paper... wah... de pressure from 2nd time and 1st time is totally different lor... de 2nd time i take it... super pressure... cuz both of them had pass liao.. so cannot fail tis time... de 2nd test when i doing half way.... i thought tat oh shit... think goin to get quite a number of ques wrong liao... but i still get to finished all de ques... lucky tis time pass... phew... a sign of relief man... how come whenever i had confidence de time... it will fail... den when i thought tat i cannot make it de time... den let me pass... wat does it mean... liao tian look like playing wif me sia..

actually todae i blog is because todae something very werid thing happened... todae when goin hm de time... on yishun mrt... pinda went out of de trian... den a man ard early 20 like tis weearing formal wear... came in... den sat beside me... tis is nth... but after a while... he look at me and my driving book which i am holding on... den he started to tok to me... tis is how de convestation process.... tranlate to eng...

de guy ask "u listening driving or motorbike?"
me reply " driving"
he ask " den u now learning is basic or pratical or wat"
me reply " basic now.. juzz finished my evaluation todae"
he ask me "so pass or fail leh"
i reply "pass.." *wif a grin*
he den ask me " den u are poly student or wat"
me reply "poly"
he ask "which poly?"
me reply "nyp"
he ask "de amk there one ah?"
me reply "yup"
he continued to ask "so when ur ns"
me reply "me juzz 1st yr of poly onli"
he den ask me sthg which i feel very funny "how come u look so happy.. always smile.. isit because u pass ur evaluation todae"
i reply him "no ah"
den he ask me " den isit gt new gf ah"

in my heart... i mean as if u and me like very close like tis... wan me ans so many of my personal ques.... but ok ah... being socialable i juzz ans back to him lor... den i say no ah... wif a smile... lucky he nv ask me who i like or wat name of de gal... if he like tis ask hor... me will striaght away walk away... haha... but lucky tat time de train reach khatib liao... den after tat me alighted liao... i think if u all will to read my tis entry... u all will think tat guy is a gay... but i dun think tat tat guy is a gay lor... he dun look like one of them... maybe he is too socialable le ba... haha...

2006-03-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

arghh.!!!! feeling quite moody these fews dae.... tat y did not blog.... though now gt feeling a little bit better onli... so juzz blog a few thing on last fews dae... ytd went to driving centre to tk my practice... i tk two booklet... both of them also fail.... i got 77% 79% respectivetly for both booklets.. to able to pass must get at least 90%... walau leh... everything seem to went wrong for me now...

tml i goin to tk my basic thoery evaluation liao... can say also a test on basic theory... though it really look easy... after wat i had gt for my practise test... i do not wan to tk any risk... juzz now read through de bk once... hopefully can able to pass de test tml... tat all i wann to say for todae... ciz de rest... i dun wan to say... cuz if i will to say out... den my mind will start to flood wif thinking and sadness again....

sigh off (11.58...28/3/2006... tues)

me and pinda wif wang tian cai

2006-03-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

me and pinda wif wang tian cai
Originally uploaded by yong_jian87.

2006-03-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

actually tis entry i had wrote on wed... but i did not post it out as i had some prob in showing de pic which was taken on tat dae... let me make an entry on wat had happen todae... when i paixi.. de place which we pai is a place where which i first time enter into.... haha... tat place is a pub... at de durian head (esplande)... whooo... de first impression is very cool de place... haha... but not used to de enviornment... but at least finally can experience de taste of goin there... but i think in real life.. if gt a chance to go there wif my frens... i also will not go often... cuz i think tat... try not to go there too often... can be being influence by others de...but i also think de chances of goin there wif my fren also very slim ah... so also de same... as most of my fren which i noe... also will not go tis type of places de...

below is a pic which i took during paixi de time... me and pinda together wif wong tian cai... me kinda of funny in de pic... as i was a bartender at tat time when paixi... de first impresssion of wong tian cai overall is still not bad ah... except tat he got smoke... as i think almost every yu ren also will smoke de... so it is not surprising at all ba... stay tune when tis show started... haha... =)

sign out (wed... 22th march 2006)...

result out....

2006-03-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

as expected... tis morning 12am... result had came out liao... actually wanna to blog ytd night de... but dun hav de mood of blogging... but now blog also de same ah.... de result ltr in tis entry den will post... shall say abt wat had happen ytd... thought ytd did not went out... but in de end... ard 2pm like tis wake up by pinda call.... he called me say that todae go and registrate for our driving instead of todae... den i say anything lor... den we went to bukit batok driving centre together wif kaitai as he mit us at bukit gombak mrt station... within one yr must tk my lincese... sian... imgine every time when nid to go for driving lesson... nid to travel for a long distance... now holidae still gt de time to learn... but when sch reopen must arrange some dae for driving lesson also... den after we had regitrate.... attend for de briefing of de all process... realise tat learn driving also so complicated.. haha... after tat we went to cck to play pool for a while... one thing tat i found out is tat... cck de kpool is easier den amk de kpool... hehe... we play for abt one hr onli... cuz campus superstar start at 8pm ma... den after tat we went hm liao...

todae nth happen... juzz stay at hm de whole dae... tonite must hav slp early liao... cuz tml still nid go and paixi again... haha... dun noe tml de xi will be smooth anot... hopefuly it will went smooth...

ok... here is how my result... Engi Drawing (C+)... Engi Math (B+).. Electric circuit (A)... Digital Electronics (A).. PCB Design (DIST)... Jap lang (B+).. Productivity, Creavity & Quality (B+)...
my overall grade had drop from last sem... kinda of disappointed.... but now had set a mindset... willl work harder for nx sem....

sign off (10.52pm.... tues... 21/3/2006)

2006-03-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

unstd tat result will be out on tis coming tues... but actually tml midnight like tis.. result will be out le ah... if u ask me how i feel... feeling nervous..?? not really... juzz dun hav any feeling... haha... i dun wan to expect so much... i scare tat if i expect high grade... den if nv mit up my expectation.. i surely will very disappointed de... and also i always expect wat thing... de outcome always will be oppsite de... so better dun expect anything... but no matter wat... me will update my result in my blog... juzz pray hard...

todae is sunday.. so as usual... wake up in de morning... went to smb to play bball... but todae quite different as last time... cuz today after playing bball... we gt play soccer... really very long nv play soccer together liao... dun noe de last time we played soccer together was when... if i nv forgt... de last time was in sec sch de time ba... was kinda of fun ah... den after tat went to wee siang out to bath... cuz after tat we goin to smb shop to play lan ma... kinda of addicate to dota nowadae... find it more and more interesting..

it already past 12am... 20th of mar (mon)... Pinda... hapPy bdae to u yea... hope ur wish tat u told me todae will able to come true ba... :)

sign off(12.18am... 20/3/2006... mon)

2006-03-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Back to make an entry on wat had happen... ytd went to paixi... together wif kt and pinda... is a movie show... but dun noe wat title... director is jack neo.. maybe his new movie ba... act at raffle place de ntuc office there... den needed to wear formal wear... cuz is pai at office ma... den went there... gt one crew ask 3 of us go to de hairstylist there... at first i thought tat.. wow... still gt hairstylist help us to style hair... but end up... she help us to gel like office look hairstyle... walau leh... so nerdy lor... totally sian dao liao me tat time... make me be4 go out de time... use so much of my time to style my hair.... arggghh... but nvm ah... must respect de show ma.... so no choice... make me dare not to watch tis show liao when it gt broadcast... lols... but i will still go and watch tis show de ah... and when it come to tis scene must watch more focus liao... hahaha... actually end at 12.30pm de... but ytd everything went smoothly... 11pm like tis finished everything which needed to shoot...

shall say abt todae.... nth really happen todae... whole afternoon stay at hm... den in de evening went to smb mit pinda kaitai weesiang jianlong and weihao for dota.... sian ah... me nowadae always play dota... and at night... always play gunbound... tis game dun noe like sec 4 like tis play de... nv expected now will go play again... haha... me really too sian till nid to play these type of game... haizz... there really no dae/ocassional and nth for me to look forward leh... wanna to do sthg which is new and fresh or sthg which i had not do for very long liao... but is there any ma...??

in my heart there is sthg i wanna to do... though i think it will happen... but now is c how long more den will these dae come...

i had detele away my tagboard due to some prob... but will install back asap... will inform u guys again when i had install back...

sign out (12.31am... fri... 17/3/2006)

week of boredness....

2006-03-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

wth... tis whole week actually everydae gt prog de which i had been looking forward to.... but in de end everything being cancel... starting from tues... plan to watch soccer together wif my bro.. den end up alone at hm watch... but tis nvm... as i all along everytime soccer de time at hm watch alone de ma... den wed actually gt dennis production... he create a movie script which i also being involved... in de end cancel (2nd time)again... den fri actually gt go and paixi one... but auntie did not go ma... den in de end also cancel (3rd time) again... den todae le... actaully todae gotta go to my grandparent hse de... to celebrate my grandpa bdae... but in de end leh cancel (4th time) again... cuz my grandpa went to hospital again... wakao... bad luck always come lor... so sway... really very hate tis kind of life... thought tat tis holi will be a very gd in term of can relax and enjoy after so much of sch stress... but somehow 1st week of holi become like tis... which i did not expect it...

but ok la... cuz everyone being busying at their own stuff.. so cannot complain so much... did not really blame u guys (my bros)... as some fren somehow will disappear slowly away from ur life de... but no matter wat thing... to those of my fren who disppearing from my life... i will rem how we went through thick and thin happiness and sadness... to those who still able to kip in contact... i will cherish u guys (my bros)... i believe tat cuz there is fate tat we had noe each other... as it is not easy to able to kip in contact till now...

dun always expect to much... had learn another thoery... as higher de expectation.. higher de disappoinment....

sign off (4.15pm.. 11/3/2006... sat)

2006-03-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

todae finally can taste wat is really a holi.... without any stress.... me todae did not step out of my house one step.... incredible hor... haha... totally nv go out todae.... actually gt go out de... but dun noe where to go... seem always do de same thing everydae.... i wanna to do sthg which is different... which are thing i did not do be4 or did not do for de long time.... but me todae stay at hm also do not noe wat to do... den me juzz whole dae been slping... ytd ard 5.30am slp... cuz ytd night watching soccer ma... haha... so sad... in de end barcelona 1- chelsea 1... den slp till 2pm... den online and watch tv... den dun noe y suddenly fall alsp again when watching tv... haha... den slp till 7pm... todae juzz slp de whole dae.... actually slp too much.. will make u feel more tired and make ur brain very blur... but somehow everytime i slp and how tired i am... i sure will like automatic wake up at 10pm.... not juzz once but everytime... is juzz like a alarm clock in my mind... cuz tis time very sensetive to me... i juz dun noe how to explain it...

ytd went town wif kaitai and jiun heer... no target when going out... i mean no target is like wanna to buy sthg or wat.... den juzz walk aimlessly lor... haha... but ytd saw some familier faces... some are those who did not saw for quite a long time... saw wei xian at orchard.. almost did not recongise her.... changed quite alot... haha... den saw seow suan and jie le at ps...

and surprisely saw her also... de feeling like very werid... look like stranger type... maybe we really very long did not chat le ba... so hav tis type of feeling... think back... we last time so close... and now juzz like drifting further away... times really make thing change alots... i did not wan to say much... so now i changed tis song in my blog... so tat u will now wat i thinking now ba...

tis holidae though seem very long... but actually it is juzz a short period... few more hr is "my mei" bdae liao... peiqin... happy 19th bdae to u yeah... :)

sign off ( 11.25pm... 8/3/2006... wed)

it holidae time !!!!

2006-03-04T03:24:00.000+08:00

whoo... finally holi liao after few months of stress.... actually my last paper ended on thur.... overall perfermance for my paper... can say not bad ah... hope tat tis time i can make it again... since exam had finished... dun wanna to say abt it anymore... wait for result to come out den say again... as now is enjoy time... yeah.... de last fews dae after my last paper... had been outside... tat y did not blog for de last fews dae... had find a time to blog now... even though now goin to morning liao... haha...

juzz now read through some of my fren's blog which are on my blog link.... one conclusion which can be made after reading their blog... can found out tat everyone of us do hav a prob and trouble in himself/herself including me myself... wat i can say to all of u is tat... we must always face de realitly... even though u dun like/do not expect it to happen... u must still carry on to do it... juzz accept wat u had now... i noe tat it is easier to be done... but tis is one part of our learning journey... we still hav a long way to go... set a target for urself and after tat aim for it... now dun think wat u can do in de future.... maybe nx time wat u do.. will not apply to wat u will be doin nx time... now juzz do wat u shld do now... and not think of wat u will do nx time... last time i also cannot accept tis fact... but slowly... i had been accepting tis fact... juzz set a target of wat u wan to do nx time for urself and after tat aim toward it...

to kt... still rem last time i told u to read my blog.. as i gt post sthg... haha... even though de post is in my draft... until now i still did not post yet... ps for makin u waiting to read tat post... make u very curious wat i had wrote rite... but tat post is not really special ah... juzz dun hav de feel of posting tat post liao... hahaha...

back to wat i had been doin tis fews dae... afternoon went to kt fren hse to play mahjong... wat i can say is tat my luck is not tat gd... lose 10 buck... den aftter tat me and kt went to mit pd ws and dennis to watch midnight movie at sun plaza... we watched "final distination 3".... really not bad... not say eeri or scary ah... is juzz er xin onli... haha.. juzz c how each character die in different way... haha... so overall not bad... quite a nice show... been playing tis fews dae liao... as last time be4 holi de time... wat i think of doin in tis holi still had not done yet.. tis week and nx week goin to start my tough training liao.... den maybe after nx week will go and find job... cannot nv work for tis holi... must really go and find job liao... so if everyone gt any gd lobang must find me leh... ok... shall stop here liao.. it getting very "early".. haha.. as now already 4am liao... tml still nid to wake up early to start my own triaining... must make a target for me myself tis holi... like tis will not make my holi so meaningless liao...

been wondering how many of u guys had been reading my blog.... a few or many or none of u guys at all.. ??? *really wondering*...

sign off (4.15am... 4/3/2006.. sat)

END of BDAE

2006-02-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

shall say abt how todae my bdae had gone... as usual... every sundae willl go play bball wif de sundae teamo... ytd night slp at ard 3am plus... dun noe how come juzz dun feel like slping... maybe wanna to use every min and every sec of my tis dae ba... haha... den actually asked pd to gif me a morning call as usual cuz scare tat i could'nt wake up... but end of waking up at 8am plus... being wake up my mother voice... haha... cuz tis morning not sure who call... either my grandmother or relative called... den suddenly she tok until very qi dong... tok until so loud lor... i thought sthg had happen to my grandfather again... den me suddenly juzz woke up... but lucky is nth bad thing had happen... juzz abt a minor thing...

den after tat wait for de time to pass den went to mit pd and kt at smb mrt station... den we play till ard 1pm like tis... after playing... me sustain alot of injuries... both hand and leg gt injury sia... dun noe how come everytime play bball wif them will always sustain injuries after tat de... but my injuries was much more todae.... me now type also wil feel de pain lor..... wah.. a small wound also can cause so much blood de... haha... but nth big thing to fuss abt... to ling wei... to hav me as one of de part of de team very gd hor... u shld be very glad and happy to hav me in ur team rite... haha...

if u read my tis post.... i think u shld noe i refering to u ba... haha... u c... i did not study for todae hor... haha... ytd told u tat todae i won't be studying le... u dun believe... haha.... as wat i had say... i will do it de lor.... no matter wat thing... haha... now believe me le ma?? dun ever doubt me again... as i think ni bu hui le ba... lols...

todae onli receive one present and tat is from my bian jie... i think tat present she gave me cost not cheap... lols... thks very much... though i todae juzz receive one present... but my biggest present i had received todae and realise tat which money can't buy... and it is frenship... cuz todae i found out tat some of my sec sch fren (which some of them did not contact for quite a long time) had eventually still rem my bdae... and make an effort to wished me... and some even brought present for me... haha... thks everyone and must also specially thks to cassand for de surprise present... though i did not noe wat it is yet... but anyway me also did not expect to hav present from u de... haha... me hope tat in coming dae can receive more presents.. hehe

my bdae had ended liao... and is time to get back to study for my remaining two more paper... gonna to be stress for tis coming 2 more daes...

now wif ur luck... no matter wat... i believe tat when i step into de exam hall.. i will be full of confidence de... =)

sign off (2.10am... 27th feb... mon)

HAPPY BDAE TO MYSELF....

2006-02-26T02:40:00.000+08:00

de dae had finally arrived... and it is todae... 26th of feb... when i turn 19... hahaha... first of alll... thks for pd ys and especailly tat ws for tat bdae song... haha... at least me gt listen to a bdae song... i thought will not able to hear it for tis yr.. lols.. but ws... sing bdae song without present and cake is super werid lor... purposely make me so ps tat time... nvm.. i will rem it de... ur bdae i will double it.. better watch out... lols..

btw me wanna to say thks to those who actually still rem my bdae todae... and wished me through msg or msn etc... thks very much... can feel ur all de sincerity le... thks...

my bdae wish for tis yr... ok ah... gif me one wish tis time can le... my one wish is "hope tat all my wishes will come true"... cuz too many to mention le... and me got juzz too many wishes for me tat nid to be grant...

ya... u actually still rem it.. haha... i thought u forgt le.. and will not msg me... when received ur msg... kinda of surprise and delighted... haha... and also thks for ur luck for my exam... really nid some luck now me... haha.. my 70% of luck had almost gone liao... nid to refill it back... onli u can refill it back onli... hopefully i can make it tis time... 2A and 2B.. still rem it...?? whoever gt tis grade or higher will treat tat person a meal... in sem 1 we had played be4... maybe u had forgtton le... but me still rem it... but will it still vaild in tis sem 2 ma..???

think back... we almost 2 months nv mit le... tat is really a long long time... maybe u did not notice it... and think nth abt it... but to me.. a dae not seeing u is juzz like a yr... imagine 2 months... how many yr had gone le...

sign off(3.18am... 26th feb... sun)

2006-02-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

yeah.... one paper is down... and tat is my A-math paper... to me is de most difficult subject among my rest of de 2 other paper which will held on coming tues and wed... but after tking de math paper... can say not so difficult as wat eventually had thought... still mangeable.... hope tat can get a B ba... if can... A will be better.. haha... but tis is wat i think onli ah... wait till de result slip is out... den will noe... now dun think of it first... will juzz concentrate on de remaining 2 more paper...

everything juzz went not rite todae... haizz... went to sch in de afternoon to do some revisation... den after tat went to mit kt... went to kpool... cuz he say he wan to play billard ma... so i say ok lor.. anyway me really very long nv play pool liao... and also very long nv went to amk de kpool to play... den we play billard first... as be4 we play de time.. we say y not play punch... will make it more interesting.. den we end up playing punch... but we play for one game onli... guess who won...??? me had lost... haizz... de last two crucial ballls let him pot in... sianization... ok.. nvm... den atfer tat... we play pool liao... we play pool and 9 ball... race to 5 and race to 3 respectively... i lost 5-2.. and 3-1... haha... first time play with him... alll de game(billard.. pool.. 9ball... ) all lost in juzz one dae... lols... isit really me ma...?? but nvm ah... is juzz a game... sure hav loser and winner de in a game... so is alrite... today in kpool... really had lot of eh... dun wan to say much ah... or not tat stupid idiot ws read my blog sure suan me again de... but juzz wan to say tat today de kpool song makes me think of u again... almost alot of song they had played are de song which last time when we are very close term de time... when i listen to de song suddenly think back last time lot of happy memories... how come happy period will always finish so fast... haizz... will it happen again ma???

1 more dae and 24hr more to 26th of feb... and tat is my bdae... be4 tis 24 hr... i still eighteen... but 12am of 26th of feb... i 19th le... haha... dun wan to get old so fast... me still gt alot of li xiang still had not accomplish yet...

sign off... (25th feb... 12.30am.. sat)

2006-02-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

ok.. shall update my life for wat had happen to me de past fews dae.... firstly must update abt my grandpa condition.. tat dae when i went to c him... his nian se not so bad... glad to c tat... but heard from my aunt... he had difficulties in breathing.. and must aviod any more fall le.. or not de outcome will be very bad... but he is always so stubborn.. always wanna to get out of de bed.. and finding alot of excuss of goin back hm... and heard from my aunt tat dae.. tat night he told her tat he dare not to slp.. cuz he scare tat if he close his eye he will not wake up anymore again... but if a person do not hav enough rest... where will hav de energy to repair all de worn out part... though tat dae i can c from his face tat he was really very tired.. but he juzz dun wanna go and slp and do not listen to others advice... he still in hospital now.. dun noe he will be staying in hospital for how many dae... but after my thur paper... maybe thur or fri will go and c him again... but hoope it will not happen... cuz if it will not happen.. like tis can say my grandfather can discharge... and me juzz dun like to go to hposital lor... a place wif lot of bad luck de.. cuz if u go to hosiptal... there will be sthg happen to either u or realtive or family or fren den u will go there... but me really hope tat he can really recovered real soon... cuz not juzz he suffer onli... my parent relative are also suffering.. cuz they are tking turn to look after him throughout... nowadae can c my mother.. she not juzz physcial tired.. plus also mentally tired... my grandfather went to hospital really make alot of us wrry alots... and thks jl and those my fren who concern abt tis thing... me really anticipated ur kindness... =).. thks...

ok.. now shall say abt my exam... these fews dae been revising my math... starting de time.. my intergation is juzz like "cannot make it" lor... basic also dun noe... but must thks xiaojian and weihao... now me unstd abt it more le... can really sense de exam stress liao... really scare lor... exam is not scare.. but is de result i been wrrying... last common test my math already got a B liao... somemore now is end of semseter exam leh.. surely will be more difficult den common test de lor... i really cannot "flunk" my math... eh.. my meaning of flunk is getting C... u all may thinking my expectation is too high liao... or being too arrogent de... but serious speaking.. if i gt a C de hua... all my hope will be GONE le...den i will make my parent disppointed twice... i dun wan to c them being dispponint... really.. cuz i promise myself i will not let my parent (especaily my mom) down again.. i am not a person wif really high ambition... if u let me get wat i wan.. i already very happy le... will not ask for any more... and tis coming thur is my first paper of my end of semster paper.. it will be math paper.. and it is my worst subj among de rest... xi wang i can overcome my math for these fews dae...

now shall say coming 5 more dae... sunday... can say a special dae for me... cuz is my bdae on tat dae... haizz... so funny me... bdae me still say haizz... haha.. but tis yr my bdae i think really will not be so happening le.. and really nth for me to look forward to tat dae... a lonely and quiet bdae for me on tat dae ma..?? maybe so... haizz... :(

sign off(11.55pm... tues... 21/2/2006)

2006-02-19T11:32:00.000+08:00

today wake up quite early... cuz juzz can't really get to slp welll... last 2 dae my "gong gong" went to hospital... den ytd night at ard 8pm he was in de critical period... my mom try to call me alot of time... but i put my hp in my bag... so did not relisea it... till my sis msg kt.. and kt told me to call back... den i relisea my mom had miss call me 7 times... and when i call her back to find out wat thing... she told me tat my gong gong tat time was in critical time... and all my relatives and cousin were over there excpet me lor... wakao... tat time when she like tis say.. my heart really sank lor... feeling very guility and feel very unfillial... lucky nth really happen to him tat time... if tat time really sthg happen to him de hua.. i really will feel guility throughout my life... cuz my gong gong can say very teng wo when i was young de time...ltr me will be goin to hospital to c him le... really hope and praying hard tat he will recover soon...

how come there quite alot of bad thing keep coming... really veri sway lor... there a sentence "bad luck come first.. after tat gd luck will come".. isit true ma?? hope it is true... and hope tis bad luck will end soon... hate it... arghhh....

btw wanna to say thk to u (i think u shld noe i refering to u ba..) for ytd night for being a listening ear... though ytd night dun noe gt how many of knife being put into my heart... lols...but still must say thks to u ah... haha... anyway rem to think of a place leh... dun make me break wo de yuan zhe hor.. seriously.. haha..

sign off (11.50am... sun.. 19/2/2005)

2006-02-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

today is my first dae of my common test... which is autocad which is also 3D drawing... exam start at 3pm... but went to sch at 10am for PCQ lesson.. cuz pcq exam is tml... lesson end till 1pm.. den went to lib to revise... but end up at lib most of de time... doing nth... haha.. cuz autocad dun noe how to revise den nv go and revise and practise lor... think it will be easy...
during de exam.. struggling especailly de 1st ques which is 30 mark lor.. to draw a whole dragram out... due to lack of time... i onli draw a little part of it onli... den after de paper.. find out tat alot of pple and almost everyone noe and able to draw out de full dragram... wth.. even zan hong and simon able to draw out lor... i not say they are lousy or wat.. i juzz cannot expect myself not able to draw out... after de paper me very sad lor... 30 marks leh tat ques... tat alot lor... i cannot get a C and below for tis moduale.. cuz it will affect my overall gpa... after thinking abt it... my tear nearly drop... cuz to me.. my gpa is very impt.. it will affect whether i can get into university anot... as tat is my aim of getting in... i not wrry abt not able to reach my aim.. but i am sad and wrry abt it because i must not let my parent down.. cuz my parent had lot of qi wan on me... i did not told my parent abt today my paper.. cuz i dun wan them to wrry abt me.. as it is better to suffer alone den to hav so many pple suffering wif u rite..

and today dde paper must really blame myself for it... cuz i did not do any practise on it be4 de paper.. i really messed up my paper todae... but wat is over is over liao... told myself tat there still a chance in my hand to overcome tis odd... as i will try my really best to do well for my upcoming other paper... tat is my promise to myself... all tis is coming from my own motivation... but will it be enough ma??? will there be anyone who will gif me tat extra motivation?? i really nid alot of morale and motivation now... will u be here standing behind me now ma?? or am i all along fighting alone in tis battlefiled???

sign off (12.00am... 16/02/2006... thur)

Valentine dae !!!

2006-02-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

today is valentine dae... 14th of feb... to other pple.. today shld be a lovely and sweet dae... but somehow todae it a boring and lonely dae for me... haizz.. ok.. shall say wat i did today on valentine dae... went to sch for 11am lecture... actually also dun feel like goin to sch today de.. cuz wanna to stay at hm to study... but after tat think for a while.. go to sch also gd ah.. at least still gt go out... better den stay at hm de whole dae... somemore today is valentine dae.. and also because i actually ytd night told shen rong and weihao tat maybe today i not going to sch... den they asked me go to sch.. den after sch go to lib study for a while.. so i wake up at 10am plus.. but delay delay till 11.30am den reach sch.. when i reach until yck mrt station saw tat jian long.. so qiao sia.. can c until him.. somemore at tis hr.. haha.. tis week me having my common test liao.. starting from tml... and after tis week.. 2 more week is my end of sem paper also... it goes fast and thick.. hope i can endure tis period of time...

de lecture end at 12.30pm... go for 1 hr lesson today onli.. so dun look like me sia.. for one hr i also will go.. haha.. but after tat went to lib study wif xiaojian weihao kun and zhan hong.. study till 3pm plus like tis.. den after tat went hm le lor... den reach hm.. most of de time at hm studying... focus myself to study... like tis will not think too many thing... hope nx yr on tis dae will be better...

den on de way home.. can c so many couple sia.. haha.. *envy*.. den some of some still gt flower carry on them.. haha.. den i suddenly rem tat last time i promise u tat i will go and find black roses for u... and i did found le.. but now i find le so wat... also no use liao.. cuz i think me also dun hav de chance to gif it to u... now think again... we really really very long did not chat liao.. de last time we chat is too long until i do not rem when it is... n now i do not noe wat had happen to u le.. but i wan to say tis... me still missing u... though i cannot personally support u and be ur side... but i will still be at ur back supporting u and praying u are fine and be happy always... =)

sign off (10.57pm... 14/2/2006.... tues)

2006-02-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

Today find a time to blog on wat had happen de past fews dae.. quite tiring and busy for de past few daes.. say sthg which is happy... on mon my mother gif me a ipod video.. hahaha... she say gif me as my bdae present... so stun lor tat moment.. haha.. but very happy.. cuz i long ago wanna to buy a new mp3 liao.. since now my mother had gif me.. i dun nid to buy anymore liao.. and one more thing less on my wishlist... and i can comfirm is tat tis present will be my most expensive present for my tis yr bdae... hehe... den for de past fews night... figuring how to function de ipod... de method to transfer song etc from com to ipod is different from other mp3.. cuz it using a software to transfer... relisead tat i really noobe in new thing.. learn very slow.. haha.. den whenever i dun noe.. i will ask gordon for help.. cuz he also gt one ipod too.. thks gordon for de help.. haha..

say abt sch thing... de last two dae.. super stress and tired lor.. mon from 8am to 5pm.. den tues from 8am to 1pm.. but after 1pm.. me together wif ee xiong they all together go and do our PCB project... do until 4pm like tis... so tiring lor after sch.. den today better.. end at 1pm.. and went back striaght hm to slp... cuz also everynite i very late slp ma... den can feel tat if i still dun get enough slp.. my temper will not be so gd liao.. haha..

juzz now say abt bdae.. nx two more week is my bdae liao.. 26th feb.. everytime me will be waiting for tis dae to arrive.. as it onli happen once in a yr.. and u can say a special dae for urself.. but tis yr.. i really dun looking forward toward tat dae to come.. cuz tis yr i can feel and sense tat it will not be so happening and happy on tat dae... another thing is because so qiao.. tat week.. everyone of us are having exam.. and my exam fall on 23th 28th feb and 1st march.. so i think i tis yr also will not be celebrating le.. maybe tis yr will be a quiet and lonely bdae ba.. and if gt celebrate.. i also dun noe where to celebrate.. cuz every yr.. i will hav a bbq at my hse downstair.. den tis yr.. will not hav any bbq liao.. i so hope tis yr tis month dun hav 26th tis date.. like tis also gd.. or not i older by one more yr again.. haha... shall let nature tk it course la.. is hav go out to celebrate or wat.. is alrite.. cuz if nv go out.. i already expected liao.. as exam is always more impt..

nowadae dun noe wat i am really thinking.. my mind and heart juzz dun match... my heart dun follow my mind.. and my mind dun follow my heart.. btw me changed my song in my blog again.. find tis song very very nice... cuz i like tis first sentence of tis song.. as tis sentence say out wat i wanna to say to her now.. " wo hao xiang ta... xian zai hao ma..."

sign off (wed... 8/2/2006... 11.10pm)

2006-02-05T22:51:00.001+08:00

today wake up at 10am.. surprise rite..?? me weekend will wake up so early.. haha.. today wake up so early because go smb play bball wif de same usual pple (sunday teamo).. long time no excerise liao.. so miss de last time sec sch life.. every time will play sport (bball soccer etc) after sch de... after playing... kanna sunburn.. now my face so red ah.. haha.. had already plan one more prog for my upcoming 2 month holi.. wanna to make myself more tanned during de holidae.. but now say still early.. wait till holi.. lazy to go suntan liao.. haha.. den after tat... me pd and kt go ws hse to tk a shower.. cuz we ytd night already planned to study after playing our bball.. as exam is coming soon liao.. but in de end.. we study for ard 1 hr plus like tis onli.. haha.. too tired to study liao... found out tat i still gt jap role play tis coming thur.. i still hav not memorise de script.. die liao ah... tis coming dae must go and memorise liao.. hao xiang act in ming xin ou xiang like tis... still gt script to memorise and still nid to act out.. haha.. my onli wrry is tat on tat dae.. when i performing de time.. i cannot overcome my fear.. den will forgt everything liao.. but i hope tat it will not happen on tat dae ba.. pray hard...

tml gt sch at 8am.. and i am very tired now.. but i still cannot slp.. do u all noe y ma.. haha.. cuz ltr gt one big match (Liverpool vs Chelsea).. and most imptly is because one of de team tat are playing is my fav team.. and tat team is liverpool.. so tat de reason i cannot slp.. tis match is die die must watch.. even i lose slp also must watch ah.. hehe.. pray hard tat liverpool will win tis match.. or not ltr i will be wasting my time to watch liao.. haha..

between now and de match start still gt ard 45 min to go.. now is so boring.. hai.. starting to think of thing liao... plus listening to songs which make me think back of last time de thing..
really wondering how u getting on now..?? really long time did not know abt all ur thing now liao.. had been making myself occupied not to think to much.. but somehow.. it juzz make me think of u again.. i noe fate cannot be forced.. so now i onli can do is juzz to think onli.. and praying for u tat u are getting fine and happy.. now watever thing.. i also dun wan.... juzz wanna to c u happy and getting fine is my onli wishlist now..

sign out...(11.20pm.. sUn.. 5/02/2006)

HappY chi nEw yr to all of you...

2006-02-02T14:44:00.000+08:00

once again.. tat is quite a long time since i last blog.. haha.. nth really interesting to say abt... now i blogging is because everyone of my bro tis week gt blog.. cause they also long long time blog one time.. since everyone gt blog tis week.. i also must blog.. haha.. today is thuresday and chu 5 already wor.. so fast de time.. as usual tis yr de same as last yr.. two thing different tis yr compare to last yr are hong bao money lesser den last yr.. because did not saw some of my relative ma.. so get lesser tis yr.. another thing is tis yr... did not really gamble.. only play mahjong wif my mum and relative (all is adult).. so boring.. is not de factor of they play slow or did not really play money.. the factor i feel bored is.. cannot able to communciate wif them when playing.. dun noe wat to tok abt.. so i juzz stare at my tite lor.. haha.. tis yr i did not play blackjack at all.. first time.. haha.. become so guai liao me.. but i think upcoming bai nian wif my fren.. i think will play backjack ba.. gamble is will gamble.. but is for de pleasure and fun of playing and for de chi new yr atmosphere.. and not playing for profit.. haha..

wah.. wat had happened.. tis chi new yr make so many pple sick.. quite alot of my fren were sick.. to all my fren.. rem to tk care of ur health during tis chi new yr period...

tis week i think i super slack lor.. mon and tues is a public holi.. so dun nid go to sch.. den wed (ytd) is actually from 8am to 1pm de.. but i 10am den go sch.. i pon math.. cause is mathlab ma.. every math lab i always skip de.. cuz go there like nv go there like tis.. teacher nv teach us one.. den like tis dun go better.. den today which is thuresday.. is from 8am to 5pm de.. i go to sch at 10am and go hm at 1pm.. haha.. 8am to 10am is jap lesson.. is not i pon.. is cause tis week dun hav jap lesson.. so nv go... den actually from 12am-3pm is pcb.. 3pm to 5pm is EG1009.. today pcb onli do e quizz so 1 hr finish liao can go already.. so i striaght away went hm.. pon EG1009.. haha.. almost more den half of our class also pon.. so pro sia.. our class.. haha.. maybe still chi new yr mood ba tis week.. ard 3 more week exam liao.. nx week must tell myself cannot so slack liao... jia you to myself.. haha

last week.. forgotton which dae.. went to watch midnight movie wif ws they guys.. watch de "i not stupid 2".. tis is my 2nd time watch midnight movie sia.. haha.. tis movie not bad.. can be recommend.. funny and some part very touching.. really.. whoever did not watch.. must go and watch.. and these movie teach me lot of new dao li.. tis movie gd point is tat.. it teaches u how to treat back a person gd when tat person treat u gd.. cause sometime that person will not treat u gd again.. if u did not treasure it..

so now my onli main thing to me.. is i will treat those whoever treat me gd.. cuz i believe tat sometime whenever u treat someone gd.. tat person will not treat u as gd as how u treat tat person.. so i do not wan to treat anyone so gd anymore le.. me shi wang too much liao.. till now my feeling is numb.. and i know tat someone will treat u even better den me.. but hope tat u are really getting fine recently.. if u really nid any help or watever thing.. u still can able to find me.. though we really very very long did not chat liao.. but i promise u tat i will help u as long as i can...

sign out (thurs... 5.15pm... 2/2/2006)

Got back my math result...

2006-01-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

blog dae for todae... juzz wanna to say abt wat happen today and de last fews dae.. quite a while did not blog le.. n juzz feel tat my eng is really de lousy and juzz cannot make it.. arggh... alot of singlish and broken eng.. hope all of u dun mind reading.. but u all unstd wat i writting abt can le.. if i gt de time.. i will go and try to polish up my eng de...

today took back our A math common test result.. teacher juzz read out everyone result in tuto... wat can i say abt de result nia.. half happy half sad ba.. ok.. will say more detail abt tis thing.. before teacher read out our result.. i was expecting an A.. so when teacher read out kun zhang result de time.. i was very shock and started to scare.. he got C for it.. as he is better den me de.. as last semster if i not wrong.. his common test gt striaght A for every subj.. so when teacher say tat he gt C for his math.. i started to wrry for myself.. den as de name goes down.. our class mostly gt C, D and a fews fail.. really very scare i end up will be C or D or even fail... in de end.. i got a B for it.. so feel quite sad for it.. as it did not mit my expectation.. ok ah.. u all might think tat i gt B is already very gd le.. but ok la.. must be satisfield wif it.. as my sadness cannot be compare to some of my fren.. as some of them even fail.. can feel de sadness in them... to Gordon and zan hong.. i believe tat both of u can make it one including de rest of us.. dun gif up.. must really study hard for our end of semster le.. as it will be much tougher den common test..
and also must congrats xiaojian weihao and sheng rong.. they r de only three who gt A for our class.. wat had happen to our class le?? last semster... our class can be counted as de best class in term of adecedmic.. but today first time.. saw our class de morale are very down.. and being demolished.. we gt tis type of result isit teacher fault?? cuz he do not how to teach.. or our fault for not studying hard..?? but to be frank.. half half.. cannot totally blame our lec.. even though he really sux.. juzz dun noe how he still remian as teacher.. cuz i believe tat hardworking = success... but anyway.. jiayou AE... let us work hard together ba...

let say abt frenship... last fews dae suddenly realise something.. human is really very werid.. when someone treat u gd de time.. u dun noe how to cherish.. and did not treat back tat person as gd as how tat person treat u.. but leh.. u will treat de another person better whom tat person did not treat u very gd.. one of de example is me ba.. who do not really noe how to cherish thing ard me.. but now.. i being awake.. cuz i juzz hate de feeling tat when i treat tat person so gd.. and tat person juzz treat me as nth... i had enough.. and i dun wan to hav tis kind of feeling anymore.. so for those who really do not really counted me as her/his fren... juzz get lost.. i dun like hypocrite.. how come whenever i treat tat person gd.. or i willing to share my prob wif or willing to help whenever tat person gt any trouble or prob.. but he/she will juzz treat me as nth.. is there really had any close fren ard me.. who will share burden and prob together.. and someone who really treat me as a trustful and a bosom fren.. there r really too make freak smile everywhere.. how come there is noone who is juzz simple and ordinary.. and someone who i really can counted him/her as my real fren... in my heart... who treat me gd and treat me as his/her fren... i will noe.. and i will treat back how he/she being treating me.. and thks for those who really hav de willing to help me whenever i nid help..

ok.. back to my story... actually i nowaday seldom blog.. had my reason.. cuz whenever i blog.. i will always think abt u.. and therefor make myself think alot of thing.. and make myself very sad.. and therefor i try not to blog so much.. tis fews dae we did not chat and msg le.. really has some ques in my heart wanna to ask u... these fews dae u gt feel de quietness without me ma?? will u think back de dae when we always go out and chat on de phone ma??? i wan to ask u tis ques.. cuz now i can feel de quietness of my phone liao.. and tis fews dae.. sometime my mind will flashed back some part some part of last time de memory (happy memory).. when it flashed back..i can able to c back de memory.. at tat time my heart was very happy (can c back de dae together wif u).. but while i thinking.. tears juzz keep rolling round my eyeball (miss tat kind of dae.. which i think will not happen again.. if hav.. i think also will not be de same anymore le..) if u will to read my blog.. and i think u will be reading it.. i really wan to tel u tat i really really very miss u... and no matter wat.. must tk care of urself leh.... though i think i cannot be ur guradian angel.. i wan to c u happy and cheerful as de first time i noe u.. promise me u must stay happy always.. as i able to c u happy.. i already very happy and satifield le..

sign off (11.52pm.. thur.. 19/01/2005)