De last time...

suddenly feel like writing blog again.. cuz me really wan to write wat i am feeling now... i do not wan to put it in my heart anymore liao.. cuz it is very suffering.. one time say all.. i think wo zhen de hen ai ni.. do u noe tat u is de only person who can gif me back my self confidence, determination and motivation ma.. but everytime u always gif me back de oppsite one.. how come..?? and how come u sttime forgt ur promise.. and last time u say promise is mean to be kept.. but now.. isit promise mean to be broken..?? and u noe tat i hate someone who do not kip her promise de ma.. but when tat person is u.. i really feel like hating u.. but me bare not to hate u.. as when u started to tok to me.. i suddenly forgt tat hateness in my heart liao.. my fren had advised me to let her go.. and say tat she is not worth... is it truth ma.. to me.. serious speaking i also think it is not worth it.. but how come i still always think of u de and cannot able to let u go.. and i put tis song(zhi guai wo) in my blog is to show how i am feeling now.. cuz gt one sentence.. it write.. "zhi guai wo bu ni fan qi ni".. at de first place.. i also dun noe how come i will suddenly fall in u.. and i still promise u sthg on ur bdae.. maybe i will not do it on ur bdae.. maybe will do it on christmas dae.. cuz i wan to end it asap.. and not to think of u liao.. after u all had read my tis blog.. and also when i finished writing it.. i juzz feel tat i am really a BIG faliure.. though from outside.. i always seem to be very strong and look like nth had happen.. but do u noe tat my heart had been shattered all de place liao ma.. it really very hurt.. and i juzz feel tat i am really very weak inside.. as there a sentence "yao na de qi.. fang de xia"..but i is a person who easy to tk.. and diffi to put down de.. but now even though how diffi.. i promise u tat i will try my best to forgt abt u de.. and let u go.. as tat de onli way i can do now.. but be4 i let u go.. i wan to say one last time.. a very big last time.. "WO SHI ZHEN DE ZHEN DE HEN AI NI.. miss u really really very much..." and thks for all de happy memorie tat u had given me.. and hope tat u will be happy always..
btw srry to all my fren especially my poly fren.. since dae one till now.. all of u think i am always a success.. and always feel of troubled.. but when u all read my this blog de time.. u will noe how actually i feel now.. srry for breaking ur all de gd impression of me.. but no matter wat.. i will put myself together again de.. so dun nid to wrry abt me.. gif me some time.. me now wan to make tis oppoportunity to special thk for some person who always encourage me when i always feeling down.. and those person are my sec sch fren (kt) and poly fren (shen rong).. and it is my pleasure to hav noe both of u.. really.. xie xie ni men..