Everything had changed (sch reopen)

sch reopen first dae... two word to describe today in sch.. "sian" and "boring".. the feeling like 1st time go to poly like tis.. long time nv contact wif my poly fren during de holiday.. so today saw them like stranger like tis.. nth much to chat abt.. beside tat all de subj, lecturer not de same as last semster le.. n most of all.. my lec hall change from big to small liao.. onli hav 2 class in one lec hall now compare to last semster gt 5 class in one lec hall.. hai.. more boring sia.. but todae still not to used to it.. still holidae mood.. today in class and lec de time.. nv pay attention.. cuz thinking lots of thing.. thinking whether will u still rem abt todae ur promise anot.. and wat shld i do and say when saw u etc... lots of thing running through my head.. hai.. my motivation and determination had really really gone le.. really dun hav de mood to study.. still rem last time we had set a target.. must gt at least 2A and 2B for last sem.. but now without u.. me now dun hav any more goal and target.. and i think my result for tis sem will drop alot.. but i noe i cannot blame u if my result really drop alot.. cuz is all my fault.. as now without u.. my morale determination and motivation had loss..
de world is so so small sia.. i today juzz found out tat ee xiong(my poly fren) actually noe rachel(my sec sch fren).. cuz he told me tat rachel is his fren noe her one.. den his fren intro to him.. somemore he and his group of his fren go out wif her quite a number of time during de holiday.. so surprise sia.. haha.. singapore is so small.. hehe..
miracle did not happen.. u actually really forgtton ur promise.. i last fews dae all along thought u will rem de.. but i was wrong.. today when i dismiss after sch to mit u.. i thought u rem.. but u actually forgtton.. tat moment.. i did not wan to remind u again.. i was feeling real hurt.. how i wish i will hate u.. as u did not keep ur promise.. but serious speaking i really dare not bear to hate u.. hai.. maybe really to u.. i is not so impt.. so from now on i will keep telling myself not to think of u so much le.. but to be say is easy den to be done.. i still cannot control myself keep thinking of u.. but no matter wat.. i wan to c u happy.. whether when u happy.. i will be happy also de.. but no matter how u treat me or wat.. must always rem one thing tat.. whenever u nid someone or feeling sad or wat.. i will always be ur side de... i promise..