Everything had gone!!!!

juzz reach hm.. damn tired today lor.. so long nv so late reach hm le.. hehe..today whole dae quite packed... acutally today plan is like tis one (11am dismiss.. den go to auntie there cut hair wif shengrong and zhanhong.. cuz they wan go and cut.. den recommend go there and cut lor.. and after they cut liao. both of them gt change alot ba.. better looking le.. haha.. den after finished cutting go and mit her de at 12.30pm as she gt sthg to pass to me.. after tat go hm den meet kt go out buy present cuz we stil hav not buy yet ma..) den today quite sway lor.. did not went smooth as wat i plan.. in de end today my stupid semster proj.. teacher ask me to change tis change that.. to make it better... den make make make.. make till 12.30pm.. stupid teacher and tat idiot proj.. and in de end i did not mit her liao.. as she gt sthg on.. den tat idiot proj delay my time until very late lor... reach auntie there ard 2pm liao.. actually mit kt at 2pm one.. but me still over at aunite there.. den we end up mit at 3.15pm.. den went to orchard wif kt and jh to buy our presnt.. den after tat buy finished liao still early ma.. so we went to lucky plaza to play pool.. play a while onli.. less den one hr lor.. but ok la.. me tis whole week nv play pool liao.. ha.. den play finished liao.. we went to toa pahyo to mit ws they all lor to eat suki sakura.. quite ex sia.. 26 buck for one person.. ok la.. long long time eat one time.. so is alrite lor.. den so qiao.. su ling work over there.. haha.. den we from 8pm eat until 10pm like tis.. until they closed.. haha.. den we after tat exhange present.. i draw until dennis present.. hai.. dun noe is sway or wat.. haha.. expected he will buy thing which surely related to dog de.. as wat i expected.. he buy a photo album which de outside surface which has dog pic. haha.. but at least photo album still gt use.. quite practical.. den we went to esplande to tk pic lor.. today tk quite a lot of pic.. haha.. cuz i wan to put my pic into my com for msn and frenster ma.. as i juzz recently reformate my com.. so all my data all lost liao.. den stay there chat chat tk pic till 12am plus lor.. no more trian liao ma.. so i ask my dad to bring us hm.. always trouble until my dad.. hai.. so ps.. anyway thks anyway..

wat r fren really for..?? ok.. shall say wat i really feel abt whenever i be with my fren de time.. when i together wif my poly fren de time.. gd thing is nth to think abt.. bad thing is really quite stress... cuz they really very hardworking.. always do revising de.. den c them like so hardwokring.. also gt tat stress feeling.. den when i together wif my sec sch fren de time.. i will feel quite relax.. but the bad point is.. i will always think alot of thing.. think lots of sad thing.. is there really did not hav anyone or any fren which i can feel relax and happy whenever i wif him/her.. there really no one which i can feel like tis.. i all along like one person in de battefield.. all by myself.. and there is no one who will be ard.. and will noe whether i dead or alive in de battlefield anot.. cuz there is really no one who really unstd me wat i feeling now...

SHIT.. how come i will like tis say.. this is not wat last time de benjamin liao sia.. u all may hav argree tat.. how come always c de darkness side liao.. last time de benjamin will always look at positive side and will forgt and forgif de and gt gd control temper one.. isit really i had changed liao..?? maybe so ba.. maybe tis fews dae really quite fan and stress liao.. therfor it make my feel very moody nowaday.. and do u noe tat once de volcano reach de max de time.. it will erupt de ma.. and hope tis will not happen to me.. though me now really very de hmmm.. how to say leh.. me also dun noe wat i really feeling now.. maybe one word can describe ba.. and tat is (moody).. maybe let me really cool down for a while and do some soul searching ba.. maybe after a while i will be alrite liao.. hopefully.. and let me say sthg.. if my attude is not gd nowadae or wat.. wanna to say srry.. i will try to make myself happy even though i not happy.. as me everytime will make myself to smile and be happy whenever i at outside.. cuz i dun wan to affect de atmosphere.. from happy event become sad event.. but do u all noe tat even though from outside.. u c tat i always luagh and smile u will think i alrite and very happy.. but from inside my heart and whenever i at hm especailly in de night.. my heart like smash into many many pieces liao.. maybe u will not will reliease tat ba.. as there gt one sentence " if u r sad or wat.. u do not nid to show out de" i now write tis is not wan my reader to sympathy me or wat.. me juzz wanna to say out wat i feel onli.. and me wil try to be happy de.. so not to wrry to much..

read ws and kt blog.. saw wat u all had write.. and both of u.. especailly ws wrote lot of our bro ship.. maybe because u saw my blog liao.. u write rite.. haha.. wanna to say srry to u.. cuz first of all.. is really not all ur fault.. maybe because u being influence wat i say in my blog liao.. and therefor u think is all ur fault.. actaully u r really always our best organiser.. serious speaking.. without u.. we will not really had contact until now liao.. dun being influence wat i say in my blog.. and hope we and i mean our group pple will still kip in contact.. actaually is all my fault.. i shld not had put all my personal prob into it de.. srry.. and i hope tat i can overcome myself asap..



sign off (2.51am... sat)