Back to story time...

ya.. as wat i say ytd tat today i will be writting back my story.. how come whenever when i abt to write my story de time.. i sudddenly dun noe wat to type le.. my mind become full of u and juzz dun noe wat to type.. nvm.. now wat goes into my mind now.. i juzz type over here.. btw tat dae had already been over.. and our story already ended le ma..??? shall say a little bit abt tat dae.. can c back de first time i first noe u de imagine.. a happy and cheerful person.. it really worth all my effort on tat dae.. if tis can able to bring u de happiness and de cheerful of u.. i dun ind wasting my effort again.. really.. as long tat i can c u so happy.. i really very happy le..

since tat dae till ytd.. we had ard 1 week did not chat(on msg and on de phone) le.. u all may think tat 1 week onli.. not really very long.. but to me.. tis one week.. everydae seem a long dae.. and during tis one week.. everydae everynite i had been thinking of u.. do u noe tat.. especially in de morning when i wake up and in de night when i slp.. and de last time i blog abt my story.. i say tat after tat dae i slowly will let u go.. so after tat dae.. i had been everydae force myself not to think of u and focus on my study as tis week also being my exam week.. i force myself to study so tat i will not think so much... actually at de start.. when i force myself to study de time.. i really did not think alot.. but after a few dae onli(ard 2 dae).. suddenly ur imagine started to flashed through my mind again.. all de concentrate on my study suddnly had gone le.. juzz could'nt focus.. started to think alot of thing again.. and i wan to say abt my tis common test first be4 i took back my result.. i dun noe my result will be like.. but i hope tat i can do well (cuz for my parent.. as i do not wan them to disppointed again..) but if i did not do well.. i really wan to say a big srry to them.. and also if i did not do well.. i also cannnot blame u.. wan to blame also be mysel.. as it is not ur fault to make me think of u.. and blame myself for not putting enough effort in it.. and tis fews dae i had been notice something.. since after tat dae.. and also de period when we did not chat.. it had been raining whole dae long.. and almost everydae it had been raining.. is it a sign or wat??.. and u also can say tat the weather nowdae can describe how my feeling ba.. maybe i think too much le ba..

read kt blog.. i agree one sentence wat he said.. love a person is difficult.. but to forgt tat person is even more difficult.. will our story be continue..?? surprise and happy tat ytd u msg me.. though u gt 2 dae(monday and wed.. if i not wrong..) u send me gd nite msg.. but ytd can able to chat wif u on msg.. though we chat for a while onli.. i already very happy le.. really very happy.. and today we also gt msg for a while.. i must be statisfeld wif now le ba.. at least can able to chat wif u.. is enough le.. do not wan to ask for anything much.. but will tis last for onli a fews dae onli leh..?? hai.. now i onli tk one step at a time ba.. not thinking too much.. n i wan to say is tat i will willing to stand beside u whenever u nid someone or help (as wat i last time on de phone told u be4.. and it will also will not change now..).. i will always be there for u de.. my promise.. as i think tat if gt xin yi(sincerely).. is enough le.. i dun mind wat de outcome will be like.. no matter wat i willing to sarcifice myself for u.. as whenever i c u happy is enough le.. missing u...

my ultimate choice is always be u.. a special and rare person..


sign off (11.11pm... 13/1/2005.. friday)