First and de last time..????

i now juzz wanna to write abt my story for today.. cuz i think my story is going to end soon.. therefor i will use my remaining time to write abt it.. so at least it can keep it as a memory.. a memorable memory for me.. i can feel tat wo men de story is really going to end after tat dae.. but i promise u and myself tat on tat dae i will make u hav a memorable dae and for me.. a happy ending dae... without any regret.. i will do wat i wanna to do and fulfill my promise to u.. and maybe after tat dae i will not go and fan u anymore again liao.. therefor maybe we will seldom chat or will nv chat again liao.. to u.. it maybe a gd thing.. and maybe u also will not notice any different without me.. i not sure.. onli u noe de ans.. but i can be really very sure is tat without u.. i can feel tat everything will be gone.. and i can also guranttee u tat i will be missing u everydae.. and will miz de time we always chat and de daes when we go out together.. i noe tis period of time is going to be very hard and tough for me.. and for my reader and also if u gt read my blog.. u all will ask me how come i wan to make tis decision(make tat dae to be my last dae of my story)... and i guess if u did not read my blog.. u will still dun noe my feeling for u rite.. as i all along do not wan to tel u.. cuz i dun wan de conquesene and situation to be so awake.. and also wat if u really noe my feeling for u.. wat will u do.. how u will react?? i think u will try to avoid me de.. so be4 tis situtation will happen.. so tat y i will make tat dae my last dae.. and after tat i will slowly let u go le.. actually whenever me c u happy.. i already very happy liao.. really... some of u may think i like tis do is wei da.. some might think i stupid and silly or wat.. but i do not wan to stay in tis well anymore le.. cuz tis well(though it is dark inside) but for u.. i noe there r quite alot of pple will provide u de light.. so u will nv find it dark inside.. since there are so many light for u le.. i think u also will not nid even nid my light.. so i will use my own light to find de way out of tis well.. But one word from u.. tat if u really nid my light.. i will use my light to shine it for u from darkness until it shine.. but i noe tis will not happen.. but i really hope and pray tat there will hav miracle happen on tat dae.. tat u say tat to me..

will our story really going to end soon?? from my bottom of my heart i really bear not to let u go..i really wanna to say it loud tat i really do not wan to lose u.. maybe wo xiang too much le ba.. if i really like tis say.. i really will not lose u le ma.?? can be together wif u le ma?? will miracle really happen..?? but if tat dae there is really no miracle.. i think tat letting u go is de best choice even though i really can't let u go.. so me now can onli pray hard tat everything will go smoothly on tat dae.. at least be4 i let u go.. my last image of u is a very happy and smiling u..
my mind so hope tat dae(which is coming soon) to come.. but from my heart.. i do not wan tat dae to come.. i now dun noe wat i really wan and wat my feeling is now.. happy??(cuz can able to c u.. ).. or sad(cuz maybe tis is de last time le..)?? will miracle really happen tat dae?? so many ques in my mind now...

sign out (2.41am.. mon 2/1/2006)