today wake up quite early... cuz juzz can't really get to slp welll... last 2 dae my "gong gong" went to hospital... den ytd night at ard 8pm he was in de critical period... my mom try to call me alot of time... but i put my hp in my bag... so did not relisea it... till my sis msg kt.. and kt told me to call back... den i relisea my mom had miss call me 7 times... and when i call her back to find out wat thing... she told me tat my gong gong tat time was in critical time... and all my relatives and cousin were over there excpet me lor... wakao... tat time when she like tis say.. my heart really sank lor... feeling very guility and feel very unfillial... lucky nth really happen to him tat time... if tat time really sthg happen to him de hua.. i really will feel guility throughout my life... cuz my gong gong can say very teng wo when i was young de time...ltr me will be goin to hospital to c him le... really hope and praying hard tat he will recover soon...


how come there quite alot of bad thing keep coming... really veri sway lor... there a sentence "bad luck come first.. after tat gd luck will come".. isit true ma?? hope it is true... and hope tis bad luck will end soon... hate it... arghhh....



btw wanna to say thk to u (i think u shld noe i refering to u ba..) for ytd night for being a listening ear... though ytd night dun noe gt how many of knife being put into my heart... lols...but still must say thks to u ah... haha... anyway rem to think of a place leh... dun make me break wo de yuan zhe hor.. seriously.. haha..

sign off (11.50am... sun.. 19/2/2005)